I write this note a thousand times in my head knowing when you read this i will be dead,
I cannot take the pain of life or even try to fight,
I tried to live for my family, that just made it harder to say goodbye,
I know when you read this, that you will wonder where you went wrong,
but it was me that could not reach out instead i just listened to songs and cry,
I laugh and smiled and gave you no sighs, as i did not want you to know i was dying on the inside,
I knew you could help but i did not want it,
I tried to survive but i could not take it,
You read this note in my room with tears in your eyes juring the afternoon,
i know you are sad but i am free,
from the pain of my life i am happy
