When The Sun Shines On The Other Side

The Meeting

One more hour to go and I can finally see her. My heart beating with so many emotions-fear, excitement, happiness. Every second that goes by is telling me I'm getting close to her. I'll finally feel her warmth and listen to her sweet voice every second. No more waiting for an audio message or for a video call to feel her in the coming weeks. How I waited for this moment after years of pure communication through our cell phones.

I can still remember the first time I met her. It was a normal day, the weather was cool with some signs of rain. I was at a fast food restaurant that I never been before but my best friend, Adam, of eleven years insisted for me to come. In his words it was "the best place in town" and that I least had to try it. He has been pestering me for a while now so in order to finally make him stop I decided to go and see if it was the best.

While we were eating I was checking my phone to see if I had gotten any messages from a dating app I installed. I wasn't really sure if it really works but what have I seen from commercials and other people's experiences I decided to give it try. What I had to lose? I was single and I was ready to welcome a girl into my life and my heart. I was not desperate but there was an empty space in my heart that only the love of a special someone can fill.

"You're still checking that thing?" Adam asked while he was chewing what was leftover of his bite he took.

"Yes, is my last time I will search, after today I will delete" I said while I was scrolling down the profiles of each girl

I decided that I was going to delete the app because I had no luck since I had gotten it. Getting ignored was not part of my hobbies so I let myself endure one more day and maybe luck will finally be on my side. I was about to delete until I saw a girl that caught my attention. Not just her smile but her cheeks. Her cheeks made her look so adorable and I just felt the urge to poke them.

"This is her!" I yelled deeply in my mind, "It has to be her, my heart is pumping too fast." I could not refrain myself from looking at her. I have to send her a message, the opportunity is right here in front of me to fill that empty space

"Hey! Are you okay?" Adam asked me with his left eyebrow raised.

"I think I found her, the one I been waiting for" I quickly answered him.

"I can tell you're serious, look at your face, is all red" he said pointing at my cheeks. My face was displaying exactly what I was feeling, the warm feeling that was spreading all throughout my chest.

After I compose myself to look away from her face I was ready to see her name, Jayla. Just saying that name makes me feel butterflies in my stomach. I thought that expression was ridiculous but now I'm a believer. I have to send her a message now. I know her name but now I want to know how she is as a person. I clicked the message icon to get ready to send her a message. I froze. My mind suddenly went empty with the thought of what to send her. I don't want to look desperate. I need to make a good impression to get her attention.

Think, think, I need to hurry. Adam is almost done with his plate and knowing him he will want to leave after he is done. I got it! I remember the advice I gained from watching relationship videos. According to them, I have to focus more on detail about their physical appearance and compliment them. But what should I compliment? She has so much cute and beautiful traits I can't decide. Well, I love her cheeks. That's it. I need to compliment her cheeks. Here I go.

"Hi, my name is Jensen, and I went through your profile and was fascinated by your hobbies and favorite activities. I especially adore your cheeks. They look so soft. I would like for us to talk. I'll be waiting."

I had never in my life been so anxious and nervous at the same time. My heart won't stop beating, my hands can't stop shaking. Now I just have to be patient. Ah, but the anxiety is torturing me. I don't know if she will even reply so I can't get too excited. It will be easier to accept rejection that way.

"All right, let's go, I'm so full and I can't wait to go home to lay down" Adam said while getting his car keys.

"You know is bad for your health to lay down with a full stomach right?" I said trying to avoid counting every second that has passed by since I sent her the message.

"Don't be absurd, I been doing that my entire life and I'm fine" he said while we were both walking to his car. "Are you okay?" he asked, "It looks like you been running a marathon, you look red and keep taking big breaths".

He's right, I feel like my heart is about to burst with all this anxiety I have inside. "I'm fine" I replied to him with a confident tone. I don't want him to see my excitement because it has happened many times that I get excited over something and in the end I get hurt.

On the drive back home I kept glaring at my phone. It was obvious that I was waiting for an important message to Adam. I know he's thinking I sent a message to one of the girls in the app but knowing him he decided not to bring it up. He knows how many times I tried to talk to a girl but cupid has not been good to me.

We arrived at my house and he gave me a thumbs up before I close the car's door indicating me he knew and hopes the best for me in this lingering wait I'm enduring. While I was walking to my room I can see my roommate was not home. He must be partying like he ever does on a Saturday night. Is for the best, even I want to have someone special in my life I prefer to be alone. I won't get hurt by fake friends and liars of this world. The only friend that has be true to me is Adam.

As I lay on my bed thinking why she hasn't gotten back to me remains in my curiosity. Maybe she thinks I'm not attractive enough to be her one. I kept getting notifications but they were not her. My heart rate raises every time I heard the sound expecting to be her. I'm starting to give up. Our paths perhaps weren't never to be connected. With a sigh I accepted and settled that I won't find anyone in this app. I'll delete it. I went to the settings of the app, ready to delete when a notification sound broke my concentration. It was her. She messaged me back.