"You think im stupid huh, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU HUH", he said while grabing Richies hair and trowing him on the floor. "GO TO YOUR ROOM, NOW!", richie stood up, pain oh his head, and ran upstairs to his room. After finally being in his room he went to bed, not even one single tear on his face. In the first couple of times his tears couldn't stop rolling down his face, but now hes used to it, hes used to the gay jokes, the bullying and even his own dad hating on him.
It all started when he played "street fighter" with a guy, turned out it was henry bowers cousin and to not look like he actually enjoys playing with richie decided the smothest move would be to pretend like richie flirted with him. One thing let to another and richies dad found out. Richie tried to explain that he is not gay, but his dad didn't believed him anything.
It isn't like richies dad is being bad to him all the time, he sometimes even goes fishing with richie, but everytime he sees richie with his friends a feeling of disgust rushes over him and he needs to let it out on someone, thats why he doesn't want his dad to see him with his friends. Before he even used to apologise after slaping him, but now he just stoped caring and richie stoped caring to. He would never actually stop meeting the losers so he knew that stuff like that could happen again, but as long as no one finds out he was good with that.
Hours passed and everyone was sleeping, exept for richie, he doesn't remembers the last time he slept early, or atleast kinda well. Always waking up due to nightmares and panick attacks is infact not the key to good sleep.
He always had a bad sleeping habit, but things got worse after pennywise left. Richie knew that pennywise died, but he still ended up dreaming of him quite often. He keeps dreaming of a situation...the situation that he wants everyone to be protected from, that he wants eddie to be protected from...
Richie stood up and grabbed the little book and the nearest pencil and started writing: "Dear diary, taday I feel like shit again...
YOU ARE READING
//𝔻𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝔻𝕚𝕒𝕣𝕪•ℝ𝕖𝕕𝕕𝕚𝕖//
Fanfiction,,Richie, I wan't to help you" "I wish you could" Eddie found Richies diary, he knew he shouldn't read it, but he still did, and now he knows everything...
