IDK I just feel like I don't have a friend group or a best friend :( Like, I realized a few days ago, that I don't really fit into any of the groups at my school. I'm friends with a lot of people, but nobody I can really talk to about serious stuff. Like why can't I have someone that I feel comfortable ranting to, and is just there for me all the time? I'm lonely, man. And I feel like all my friends either don't agree with me on enough stuff to talk about certain things, or all they want to talk about is themselves. Like, I'm constantly being interrupted (with most people). Even my family. It's like people forget that I have feelings too, and I don't want to laugh about everything all of the time. I just want someone to talk to who'll listen, you know? I have no problem with talking about other people's lives, but can we talk about mine sometimes?? Am I not good enough to have my own friend group or just one good friend who doesn't laugh at me all of the time and I want to spend forever with?
There's also something (I can't say exactly what) else that I've been thinking about. I feel like I don't want to be in this certain environment, but I still want to be friends with everyone there. It just feels like it's not fun anymore and I want to cry half the time I'm there. People sort of forgot what respect was there, and I don' know if I want to leave yet but I'm definitely considering it.
IDK 2020 has sucked so far TBH, and I just want to vent to someone but I have no one to vent to that I feel completely comfortable with. Maybe I should find an IBF. But then I just get my hopes up about meeting them, and it'll probably never happen. I thought I wanted a bf/gf, but what I really want right now is a really good friend.
Well, sorry for not posting in like a month, but maybe I'll be more active on here. Also if you wanna be friends hmu🥺❤️
