This is me, deal with it.😝

I'm ok....... I hope

I think I'm very over emotional. I mean I can't help it. I just like for people to be there. Just so I can just hug them. Or kiss I mean honesty a kiss is way better but whatever. I hate being raised in a real country place. I have believes that are different and its hard. I mean one its hare to get a boy friend (for me at least) that's ok with me being trans. And girls just say I'm there girlfriend but I'm not. I'm Alexander its hard for me to say. Because I feel like I should not feel this way but I do. And I keep second guessing myself which suckes. I wish I liked the way I looked. Everyone gets mad when I say I'm ugly or not cute. They act like I love to say that or something. No that's how I feel. I hate listening to dawn and Kari double team me. Like that's not fair to start arguing with someone if there's 2 of you. I wish I could go back to 6th when I was a lesbian who wanted to die. But "she" still had the most beautiful and amazing girlfriend. And her best friend. I mean Kari was perfect I loved everything. The way she smiled. The way she hugged me. And how I had her no Ethan or kaleb. No just me and her in love. I jus wish I could go back and just kiss her when I had the chance. But I didn't and I'm an idiot. It really sucker but that's my life for you. But I really wanted that kiss. Oh well. Oh also I dated hayley and I loved her not nearly as much as kari but it was good and things happened. Long story short the only 2 people I ever loved are dating. I really should have seen that coming tho.

Love me or hate me, both are in my favor. If you love me, I'll always be in your heart. If you hate me, I'll always be in your mind. “ 

-William Shakespeare

I love this poem because it's just a wonderful out look on it. All I have to do now is actually do it.