My Rebel

Letting Go

I jumped out of the bed sheets and so did Luke.

We started to grab our clothing an tried to put our clothes on fast.

*Creak!!*

"OH MY GOD, YOU TWO FUCKED." Sandra squealed

*click*

She took a picture of us and ran.

I sat on the corner of the bed put my undergarments on and my shirt.

I began to cry. Not the little whimpers. The hardcore crying that no one wants to let people see. But at this point I was broken. I didn't care what Luke was thinking, I was done with everything and anything.

"Edeth, I know your hurt and you feel ashamed but I'm here" his low voice whispered into my ear. I felt his bare arms wrap and my waist. I couldn't say a word. I was too broken to say anything.

"Shh, Edeth. It'll be okay. Don't let that cunt hurt you" his voice wasn't so aggressive or funny as usual. This time he sat there and said sweet words. It thought I'd never hear.

I wiped my tears, took a deep breath.

"Luke, I don't think we can be friends anymore" I said with whimpers and tears running down my cheeks.

"Why?!? What do you mean edeth?!?!? If your talking about dating. I told you we are only meant to be brother and sister" his worried yet very angered voice said.

"I can't be friends with you anymore Luke. I'll love you know matter what. And I can't do this anymore, every time I look at you. I fall for you even more and then at that split second I break. Knowing ill never be held in your arms or loved by you at all. Kills me. I can't do this" I cried.

I got up and put my pants on. Wiped my tears and headed for the door.

"Wait! I know it's hard but Edeth your my best friend your like the coolest chick. I can't let you go."

"Well try to Luke."

I grabbed my things and left.

*ping*

Message From Sandra 10:31 am

"Your picture is everywhere bitch, don't fuck with my Duke. Or I'll fuck with you"

That fucking bitch.

Message Sent 10:33 am

"I stopped being his friend Sandra. Your ass is mine bitch"

I called Luke.

"Luke we are fucked!" I yelled

"I saw. Sandra sent me a picture. Can we talk about what happened?" He said carelessly.

"What's there to say Luke?" I asked

"What did I do? Why can't we be friends?"

"Luke you'll understand, it's for the best" I whimpered.

*click*

I just hung up on Luke, that would never have happened. Never.

And with all honesty, I don't know why we can't be friends. I mean I really don't know what's going on in my head but it clearly wants to not be friends with him. But my heart, it hurts. It wants the love he never gave, and I see how girls use him and I get that jealous feeling inside me when girls hug him or show any love to him. He's my everything. Well at least a big part of my world he was the reason I woke up and decided to live on.

And now that I want this, I feel dead. But maybe this will help me move on.

He's not going to be there anymore.

I finally got home, ran to my room and laid there knowing how much I love him and want to be with him. I had to let go.

I look at the clock 8:37pm.

I close my eyes and my fake death begins.

"HEY, GIRRLL WHAT'S UP!!!????"

I heard a voice scream out my window.

It sounded like Aleks.

It was pouring out poor Aleks!!

I put my hands on the cold glass window and pushed it open.

"Aleks get inside" I yelled

"Tell me What's wrong?" Aleks said in her sweet worried toned voice.

It's funny how she knows how I feel.

"I'll tell you later, come in. Just wait down stairs while I get ready" I said.

I pull my window down and step into my room and put on sweats and a tight black sweater. I put my hair up in a messy bun and put my boots on.

I ran down stairs to Aleks.

I quickly jumped into wet soggy arms.

"What's wrong?!?" She said really worried

"I lost him, I lost everything" I said while my pain and hurt ran down my cheeks.

"Oh no, what happened?!?" She squealed.

"I just had to let go, I loved him for too long and clearly he doesn't want me. So I let him go. We are no longer friends" I cried.

I looked over to my phone on the table 9:00 am

School tomorrow. This should be fun I thought.

"Why did you do that Edeth?!? You know he cares!!"

"I know but I need to stop believing in him and I. We both know our love will never be" I quietly said.

"I know but still you're just going to live him there?"

"Yeah, just like he did every time I needed him"

Aleks didn't say anything. I looked into her dark eyes. I could tell she was worried about us. She's best friends with the both of us. So she's stuck in the middle.

*ْ KNOCK KNOCK*ْ

I ran to the door. It was Luke he was standing there in the rain with Scarlett roses and card in his hand. His light blue eyes told me how he felt...