I Love You Too

What The Hell!?

  I hear the final bell ring and I quickly pack up my stuff. Finally, I will get out of that hell hole that is supposedly "good" for you. I rush to my locker and enter the code. I open it up and get my bag. I then bend down and put all of my stuff in. 

 'Its finally summer vacation!" I think to myself

  My thoughts were interrupted by a girl slapping my ass. I turn around and face the girl. She smirks and whispers in my ear 

"No homo."

"Fuck you." I reply.

Apparently graduating senior year means you can do what you want. Yes, I am 18. I am free. The bell rings and that means  that if I better hurry up because the busses are here. But I walk home so I don't really care. I finish packing all my stuff and rush out. I scan the crowd of high schoolers and see my best freind Katrina, or Kat for short. I speed walk to her and poke her in the side. She immediately screeches and everyone looks at her.

"What did I fucking tell you?! Do not do that, you know I can't control myself.' She lectures me then punches me softly in the arm.

"Whatever," I say," But anyways, did you see that new Hamilton animatic?! It's so good!"

"Oh my gosh I did! Did you see that new Vocaloid song?" Kat asks.

"Yeah! I love it!" I exclaimed.

We both started talking about Hamilton and Vocaloid but it was interrupted by a boy shouting

"Hey Crystal! Catch!"

I smile at Kat, then turn around to back up. Suddenly I hear Kat shouting 

"Crystal! Watch out!"

I turn my head to the right, and see a car zooming towards me. I am frozen in fear. I can't move a muscle. Then, my life started flashing, from going to the movies for the first time to meeting Kat. Is this the end? Is this the end of my life? Finally when I'm able to move, it's too late. The car hits me, and I scream. It was the worst pain I ever felt. I see Kat running to me shouting and telling me its gonna be fine. I felt as if someone was stabbing my whole body. I force a smile,look at Kat, then everything turns black.

Suddenly, I'm on the ground. Wait, wasn't I just hit by a car? Or was it a dream. I slowly sit up and look around. It's really creepy. I look up in the sky and see a pentagram. What the?! Where am I?! And where is my school? I stand up and walk around, inspecting this weird ass place. I thought I was just in school, so why am I here. Then it all comes back to me. The car hitting me. No no no no, I can't be dead. Not now, not like this! No, this has to be a dream. Am I in a coma? That has to be it. I can't be dead.

"This is just a dream, you damn baby." I tell myself, " Your in a coma, your not dead, your such a baby."

But, what if I'm actually dead? No! I won't believe it. But then, why can't I stop thinking about it?

"Because your an overthinker and a baby. Just shut up and don't whine." I yell at myself

You see, ever since I started high school, I been diagnosed with Anxiety. I get voices in my head telling me that I'm a baby, ect. I was never depressed, I never cut, or starved myself like those girls who pretend to be depressed for attention do. I just delt with it by bringing myself down. But I've been getting better.

"Idiot! Why are you talking to yourself like your writing a first person book?! This is why everyone thinks your insane. They may not say that, but it's what they say behind your back." I think to myself.

I sit by a rock and hug my knees. If I was dead, what would my parents do?! Would they even care? What about Kat!? I can't leave my best friend. This isn't fair. 

All the emotions building up in my body were too closed in. I stood up and shouted

"WHAT THE HELL?!"

Thanks for reading! The chapter is shitty but its my first time so what do you expect?

Thank you have  a good day/night!