Banking on Billion

Inevitable

"ughhhhhhhhh"I groaned snoozing the alarm just as it hit me . It was procedure day. I checked the alarm 8:53 . "Shit shit shit " I said climbing off of JB " wake." I slapped his cheek "up. Jabriel, wake up!" I said shaking him " we didn't even make it to the shower! What about the appointment we only got 30 minutes til!". I stomped my feet at an exhausted JB. "C'mon bae forealllll" I said pulling on him. he turned over . I hit him harder " Billion Jabriel! if you don't get the fuck up now! " I shouted now I was furious . I really needed my anger checked "mane look." he raised up on his elbows "I hear you. Call your doctor and tell them We running late simple...go shower. Wake me when you done" and he threw the covers over his head.
            I called my doctors and gave them a heads up per jabriel and I ran me a hot bath instead when they told me I could come at 12. No later. Good. I needed a hot relaxing bath. I listened to music as I replayed last night. That was some good ass sex , per usual. Our sex was always good. That's what I liked most....then I remembered Monica. "Let me wash up and get out of here" I said as I lathered soap and began washing my body.
          I wrapped myself in the towel and bent over to push the drain to began letting my water out. That felt so refreshing I needed it. I dried myself off and reached for my coconut body oil. It wasn't on my shelf. Just as the last of my bath water drained I reached for the door knob but then I heard voices "mane I told you we not together no more I was with my sister" I heard JB explaining. He had to be into his phone conversation because now with the door opened still he was continuing to talk. "I was with her . You tripping for nothing. I told you I'm out of town until-" and he looked up "lemme call you back....mom" he said looking back at me and his energy shifted.
         "Who was that jabriel I know it wasn't your fucking mom, my nigga quit playing with me." I said dropping my towel as I spotted my oil on the night stand . "So who was it". "Look I'm not going to do this today , I gotta get ready for this appointment. I told you it was my momma damn. Let me get in the shower before your ruin my day." And he went into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him. I flopped down on my bed " I'll never have this man to myself. I might as well give up. And since I'll never, I'm done letting him have me to himself. Fuck him. I gotta get dressed."
                     We made it to the clinic at 11:00 exact . "Sign in at the front desk . For appointments sit in the blue chairs, for scheduled surgeries, sit in the red" I signed my name and sat in the red chair closest to the air. Damn it's hot in here.
"come sit in my lap" JB said with a smirk "nah I'm good. And besides, it's already too hot". I responded with attitude. "Well I'll wait in the car you don't need me here" JB threw at me as he gave me my bag and stormed out the clinic.
             "Asiani ross." The nurse called out and I followed him to the back. He gave me a gown and socks "strip into this and knock on the door when ready ok?" And he stepped out. I quickly changed , I'm so ready to be done. Finally I was at peace with it, maybe god too was telling me I didn't need a child by this man? I folded my jeans and blouse placing it neatly in a chair. Then I knocked and sat on the exam table. The nurse came in and wasted no time starting directions  "hi I'm David and I'll be your nurse today." He began writing "umm.. The term 'early fetal death' refers to situations in which the fetus is no longer alive, but the uterus has not yet started to expel its contents..." he began explaining as I zoned out and back in "you've suffered a missed miscarriage. Meaning you've miscarried but your body didn't expel the fetus on its own . Here." He handed me a small pill . "I'll give you the oral medicine ,  misoprostol. This medication helps trigger your body to pass the remaining tissue to complete the miscarriage. In 5 minutes, you'll wait in 'recovery after procedure' and follow all it's courses there . You'll be cleared to go in about two hours . Once you leave you'll have minor discomfort and period like blood but it's okay, wait six weeks and eventually the whole miscarriage will pass." I grabbed the paper cup filling it with water as I prayed "lord it's in your will...and for that I'm ok" then I tossed the pill back and drowned it with water swallowing the whole concoction.
                                 (1 and a half hours later)
     I woke up in grogginess "ugh what time is it ??" 1:42. I looked at the clock on the wall I faced. At my bedside was a bag of belonging I grabbed my phone. "I probably should call Jabriel, this nigga a kid man" I said dialing his number . I put the phone to my ear and immediately heard an echoing ring scaring herself. She flipped over facing the chairs on the other side of the bed "Yea. I'm a kid though. Go back to sleep, you still got a few more minutes before we can sign out and leave"
                   I rolled my eyes and just turned back over ....this man was psychotic seriously it's like he moved only in the moment and forget everything he did in the pass, regardless of the situation.
               The next 30 minutes quickly flew "here Asi. You need help or you got it ?" J asked handing me my panties, the after care kit from the nurse , and my jogging suit to put on. "I got it." I said dryly as I leaned up . I was cramping hardcore like a really bad period. I attempted to jump down as I tripped over my ugg slippers beside the bed. "Shit" I said grabbing the air frantically to catch myself. My balance was off "Aye girl I got you, mane you so damn dramatic oh my god" J said rolling his eyes at the whole situation. I snatched away from him embarrassed  "move I'm good I didn't need your help first off" he just shook his hand and threw his hands up stepping back. I shook the gown down my body and started putting on my clothes "Yea. And I don't need you watching me either bye I'll meet you at the car." . He ignored me once again "ummm are you deaf? I said bye jabriel damn . You finna piss me tf off" I began getting louder. "You swear you a grown woman you need to grow the fuck up . I'm not stunting you. Get dressed so we can get up out of here. I don't have time for your shit today Asi" he said very calm making me sort of nervous. Taking his advice I didn't say anything else but instead finished getting dressed and grabbed my bag. "Ok. I'm done . Let's get outta here..." JB nodded towards the door opening it "Ladies first" he said sarcastically. "Ooooooo you're such an asshole" I spat disgustingly as I sashayed towards the discharge desk with him following . I wasn't about to let this nigga see me sweat and compared to the first time...besides the cramps I was actually feeling okay. A little tired but nothing I couldn't shake. I signed the clipboard as the lady instructed me my discharge information and follow up date would be sent via email. Great . I'm out of here , last time for sure . Im going to trust God .