Your Loss

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"What the fuck?!" Echo asked as she walked up to me leaving Opie and Matt to talk.

"What?" I asked taking a sip of my beer.

"You left here pissed off and in tears. You come back six months later grinning ear to ear, smelling like sex with some singer in a band?!" Echo asked bewildered.

"Matt... Matt's different Echo. God is he different. But it's a good different." I said sighing.

"Seriously though, you stink of road sex." Echo scrunched her nose at me.

"Sorry, I couldn't help myself." Matt said walking up behind me.

He pressed a kiss to my temple as the prospect handed him a beer. "You guys are cute though." Echo smiled.

"Thanks." I replied with a slight blush on my cheeks.

"Hey Matt, come here. I wanna show you something!" Ope told him.

Matt titled my head to plant a kiss to my lips before walking off with my brother. "How did you two meet anyways?" Echo asked.

"Well, remember how I said I was going to stay with my friend Michelle? Well her husband, Brian, is the guitarist for their band. Matt and I really hit it off and about two months in he asked me out." I explained.

"He treats you right?" Echo asked.

"Yes Echo. He's amazing." I told her.

"As long as your happy Chris." Echo smiled.

"Chris?" A deep rasp sounded behind me.

I refused to turn around because I knew a set of dark eyes would meet mine and we'd have problems. "You were told to leave her be Hap." Echo told him turning to look at him.

"Chris. Can I speak with you?" He asked completely ignoring Echo.

"No Hap. No you can't." I responded.

I slammed my beer bottle on the bar and went off in search of Ope and Matt. As soon as I found them I wrapped myself around Matt's frame. Ope excused himself and Matt rubbed my back softly.

"You okay baby?" He asked.

"No... Can we go to the hotel? I, I don't wanna be here anymore..." I asked looking up at him.

Matt nodded and lifted me up. I hugged my body to him as he carried me out of the clubhouse without a word. Matt drove us to the hotel and I simply slipped into a pair of sleep shorts and a tank top before sliding into bed.

Matt stripped to his boxers and climbed into bed beside me. Pulling me close to his side he stroked my back calmingly. "What happened Chris?" Matt asked quietly.

"Happy fucking Lowman happened." I sighed. "I'm sorry Matt." I said sadly.

"Don't apologize baby. It's only been six months. I don't expect you to be over him already. I'll still be here no matter what because I love you." He told me.

I had no words so I simply snuggled into his chest holding onto him tightly. Matt tipped my head back and captured my lips in a sweet kiss. "It'll be okay Chris. You can do this." He told me.

I nodded and Matt grabbed the remote flicking on the T.V, finding us something to watch before bed. I didn't manage to catch any of it as I succumbed to the warmth of Matt's body as I slipped into a deep slumber.

>>The Next Day<<

"It's a BOY!" Opie yelled as blue balloons came tumbling out of the box.

We all cheered and I ran to hug Echo. "I'm having a son!" She said, her voice cracking as tears began to fall.

"You are!" I replied hugging the hormonal, emotional woman.

"Oh Chris." She blubbered into my shoulder.

"Echo come on baby." Ope cooed taking her from me.

I smiled and shook my head as I felt a pair of large arms around me. I spun to see Matt's bright dimpled smile. "Hiya handsome." I greeted.

"Hiya." He chuckled leaning in to steal a kiss. "You having fun baby?" He asked.

"Yeah I am actually. Maybe aside from a set of eyes following my every move." I explained.

"Maybe he realized he fucked up. Wants you back." Matt suggested.

I snorted a laugh. "Even if that were true Matt, I don't see that happening. I'm happy with you." I said softly meeting his warm hazel eyes.

"Good. Cause I'm not letting you go that easy." He grinned.

He reached down and lifted me by my bum making me wrap my legs around him as I laughed. His grin never left his face as he leaned forward kissing me softly. Matt set me back on my feet and I went to get a plate of food. We all sat down to eat. Sharing laughs and stories. All the boys making sure to spill the embarrassing ones about me.

"I did not!" I yelled laughing as Juice told the story about when I drunkenly kicked him out of his bed and stole it.

"You did to! You came staggering in, literally kicked me onto the floor and face planted into my bed. I had to have Hap come and carry you out!" He laughed.

"Okay maybe I drank a little too much that night." I admitted and Matt laughed from beside me.

When dinner was over we all dispersed into our own little groups. Ope asked Matt to join him on a booze run, so I was left sitting by myself by the fire pit in the back yard. At least, I was by myself.

"Christina..." I heard his rasp and my heart stuttered in my chest.

"What Hap?" I asked.

"We need to talk... Privately." He said.

"No Hap we don't." I said tilting my wine back to take a long swig.

"Yes we do. I really fucked up Chris..." He said coming around to sit in front of me.

I turned my head away from him. "No Hap. You made yourself perfectly clear." I told him shaking my head.

I got up and walked away hearing Hap sigh behind me. I made my way into the house and into the bathroom shutting the door behind me. I let out the breath I was holding and shook myself. I moved forward to look in the mirror. God I'm pathetic...

I love two men and I can't even make up my mind. So badly I want to give Hap the time of day, let him convince me to take him back. The other half of me wanted to just leave now. Take Matt home and forget that Happy Lowman even exists...

"What the fuck is wrong with me?" I whispered as a few tears slipped down my cheeks.

I allowed myself to cry for a few mintues before splashing my face with cold water. I heard the bathroom door open and wiped my face quickly before turning around.

I met a pair of dark eyes. "I should have never said what I did. I lied to get rid of you. I felt like you deserved so much more than what I could give you. You deserve safety and security. All I could bring is death and destruction. But goddamn it I fell in love with you. You made me feel so many things, things I never understood until you weren't here. I fucking love you and I'm not ready to just let this go Christina. I won't."

With that as his final words his lips crashed to mine as he clutched my face between his palms...