I am just trying to set up a good life and pathway for myself after I graduate. I am so scared I am going to have a bad life. I am terrified that I am going to have a bad life. Like I really don't want to go through something that's going to effect my life in a bad way anymore. But like I'm scared to do things and I'm scared to get close to people that do things that aren't always the healthiest. Like someone that smokes cigarettes, I don't want to watch them suffer the consequences of effects of cigarettes. It would hurt me more to see someone I care for suffer than myself suffer.
