Moments / Zayn Malik One Direction Fanfic

Part 9.

Last night was completely overwhelming, Harry uttered his heart out and told me he loved me. I had nothing to say back, I was afraid I’d say the most horrible thing. That I didn’t love him, not that I didn’t. I do still have a bit feelings towards him, but I’m whole-heartedly Zayn’s. Our secret kiss was passionate, yet sinful. We smiled and I asked him to pinky promised that we stay as normal as we can, and not tell about this to anyone.

What was more awkward is to act as if nothing had happened to Zayn, we continued with dinner and had light talks as per usual. Then we gathered up in front of the fire place getting warmed out and make burnt marshmallows together. I’d sit next to Zayn on the far end and I’d catch of a glimpse at Harry, he’d nod and smile.

What I realize is that I can’t do this, I can’t like two guys at the same time. I can’t even be in the same room with both without being guilty.

“Anyone up for another bag of smores?”, Niall asked. he has eaten the most smores.

“I want moreee”, Shania raised a hand.

“I’ll get more biscuits and chocolate then”, Avi stood up.

“Well how’s the first night so far?”, Harry asked. he had his foot up the sofa and laid down on the carpet with his festive pillows.

“It’s real nice ay chap?”, Liam answered with a silly made up accent.

“I think it’s rather amazing, this place”, Lou shoved down his last bits of smores and got his moth smothered with melts of chocolate. “Avi get more biscuits for me pleaseeee”, he yelled with his mouth full. “on it!”, she yelled back.

“I think I’m off to bed”, I said lazily, “goodnight”.

“Good night darling, I’ll catch up with you soon”, Zayn kissed me on the fore head then tapped me off.

“Night Sam”, Harry said. He looked up for the last glimpse.

“Nighty night babe. Wake up early tomorrow, we might go horse riding”, Shania added.

“Sure sure. Sounds nice”, I smiled then walked off.

“What’s with her?”, Liam seems suspicous.

“She’s probably knackered”, Zayn answered as if he knew everything.

Deep down Harry understood her, if he was in her position, he probably can’t digest all the things that just happened ever so quickly.

“She seems upset”, Avi stepped by and gave the sticks of smores and chocolate to Niall.

“She’ll be fine by tomorrow. she needs to sleep it off. I’ll go check on her”, Zayn stood up then messed his hair up in frustration.

He knocked on the door but he still went in without a permission, he sighted at Sam which was undressing her self and put on her PJ. “Hi”, he said then laid down in their bed. The room looked rather fancy for an old bungalow, it had the flowerish accent to it. I slipped in the sheets and fluffed my pillow as it was my before-sleep-ritual, I shifted my body and turns toward Zayn who seems in a pretty bad mood.

“What’s up?”, I asked dearly.

“Nothing. What’s with you?”, he lit a cigarette up.

“I’m tired, and you’re not supposed to smoke inside a room. Put that away”

“I’ll smoke whenever I want to”, he said bitter.

“you’ve changed”, I said finally after an awkward silence.

“No, I’ve smoked since forever”, he took another sip.

“For god’s sakes put that away. That’s not what I meant, you’re not you lately”

“I feel just the same”, he said simply.

“Whatever”, I shifted so I won’t face him.

As I tried to shut my eye I can hear him swearing under his breath and walked out frustated, the door got some piece of his mind as he almost brake it after slamming it too hard.

I grabbed my phone and I texted Liam and Harry, forwarding the same text. “He’s upset, no idea. Calm him down and send him to bed soon pls? night night xx”. After a few seconds it vibrated with two new messages.

“Yes ma dear, he’s out having a drink and a sip with Harry. Don’t worry –Liam”, I check the other one as it says.

“Talking to him now, he’s just not in the mood, I know u understand. Love u, -Harry”.

Tears fell down the tip of my eyes, as I read the last text. I’m having mix feelings which is real horrible. Then I decided to text Harry back a simple one to know that I’m feeling fine. “k thanks, need some shut eye. Love, t”.

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The next day, we woke up at 6 and head down to the near barn yard at 7ish, Harry’s step dad knew the owner well and had called so he can lent nine horse for a ride for an hour or two.

“I’m super excited!”, Shania held Liam’s hand tight while walking inside the stable picking our horse.

“wow that’s huge, Niall I want to ride on that one”, Avi pointed to a black horse on the far end.

“You sure? Em they have ponnies you know?”, Niall was concered.

“Shut up haha, damn ponnies, that thing is cool”, she laughed out loud with no sensible reason and runned towards em.

“Gees you got yourself a might girlfriend there mate”, Lou joked.

“yeahyeah”, Niall then got on his own horse.

“You okay?”, Liam helped Shania ride his own horse.

“Yep, wow it’s pretty high up here”, She was trying to get the horse moving, then Liam took the rope and guided Shania out of the barn. It was nice and warm outside, the country atmosphere is well in. and it was real relaxing.

“So……hey”, Harry and his white horses had slowed down beside mine. My horse just stood there as I enjoyed the scenery from the top of the hill. I can see the bungalow a few kilometers north, and a few other houses.

“Hey”, I tucked my hair in as the wind blew violently here.

“Nice weather huh?”, Harry and his small talks…

“What’s up Harry?”

“So I talked with Zayn yesterday, and I figured out why he was so upset. And it wasn’t at you”, he uttered.

“So?”

“Sooo……in speaking, you should talk to him. It’s not for me to discuss”

“Okay”, I said shortly and commanded the horse to face backwards and head down to the barn. I need to get home soon so I can talk to Zayn, he was still sleeping while he left and she thought she’d make him breakfast so he’ll be in a good mood.

“I’ll be here for you, you know?”

“Yes, I know”, I nodded and kicked my horse so it would run. Others were still going around in circles on the barn, and still sight seeing on pigs and stuff. I saw Azura and Lou cracking up feeding chickens and Shania Liam were joining them. The couples that were having a blast I wished I had that.