LORAINNE'S POV
100 days na lang daw itatagal ko e! :(
It was according to my doctor. Meron daw akong Cancer. I was diagnosed a month ago. So it just means that I only have 70 days .Stage 3 cancer daw but I don't know why I'm still this active. My hair wasn't even losing. I don't know how I acquire this kind of f***king disease. But it happens, if it's my time to say goodbye, it will come.
Ako nga pala si Lorainne Mercado. 3rd year college. HRM student sa St.Andrew University.
Di ko ba alam kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng tao sa mundong ito, ako pa yung tinamaan ng ganitong sakit. Currently, I was taking chemotheraphy. Now, I could see my hair is now losing, strand after strand. Bumababa na yung self-confidence ko. Wala pa namang nakakaalam nito besides my family & my bestfriend, Venice. I told my family not to treat me so special kasi baka lalo kong maramdaman na talagang mawawala na ako. That I will DIE eventually. I also tell my bestfriend the same thing and never to tell our classmates or anybody. I just want them to treat me like normal, nothing special, just pure intentions and all.
I remember, nung una ko yung sinabi sa family ko, they were so shocked. I see my mom already crying at the couch. Kaya niyakap ko na lang sya. Then, all of a sudden, yumakap na din silang lahat sakin. My mom, my dad at yung dalawa kong kapatid, isang lalaki at isang babae. I realized, na di naman pala masama na nagkaroon ako ng ganito. I could feel their love, their concerns, their care. It was so heart-wrenching. I can't help, umiyak na lang ako.
At least ngayon, alam ko kung hanggang saan na lang ako so I could cherish every single second of my life. Then when I told my bestfriend about this, bigla na lang siyang napaluhod tapos iyak na ng iyak.
"Bakit mo naman ako iiwan bestfriend? Nakakainis ka naman e. Pano na ako? Wala na akong kasama sa canteen? Yung mga kalokohan natin. Sino na kasama kong mag-cutting?" Then she stops for a while "I love you bestfriend, mamimiss kita." Those were the exact words that she said. The words that make me fall in my knees and make me cry.
I told myself, those would be the last time na iiyak ako. Lorainne will be stronger. I will be stronger.
Back to Reality--
Then, I decided to make my bucket list. I think to myself that I have to accomplish these things before my last breath.
Kumuha naman ako ng pen & paper, here in my study table. I was currently sitting here on bed while eating my tacos.
I put the title :
MY BUCKET LIST
1.Mag-bake ng cookies together with my bestfriend.
2.Mabigyan ng surprise yung family ko.
3.Kantahan ako ng isang tao in front of many people.
4.Mag-hiking kasama ang barkada.
5.I want a Hello Kitty galore sa bedroom ko.
6.Magpa-tan ng skin sa beach somewhere in Batangas.
7.Mag-scuba diving.
8.Manuod ng fireworks habang nasa taas ng ?? Uhm. Kahit saang mataas na lugar. :D
9.To have a one of a kind proposal at marriage.
10.Makita ko na si Mr.Right for me.
My ghad. Parang ang hirap nung iba kong hiniling no? haha. What you think?
*YAWN.
Antok na ako. Tulog na lang muna ako. Basta I'll keep in my mind that Bucket List.
KINABUKASAN sa SCHOOL--
