How to find a real lover

He finally felt the same connection as i did

He grabbed me and kissed my neck and said " I'm ready for you" my face really red looking up at him since he was tall and I'm a shortie I looked at him and leaned into him he sat down grabbing my waste and kissed me that made me really really weird I felt seductive and I looked at him and we made out soon he looked at me and my face releasing I was covered in his jacket he kissed my neck all the way to my collar bone he gave me a hickey but then we snapped back into reality and I-I-I-I he looked at me with dead eyes and stood up and looked at me like he hated me my heart dropped. " honey you okay" I asked Negi no response he walked out when I left the bedroom I looked at him he was staring at a girls photo.... it tore my heart and then he made Eye contact with me he realized I was mad he put his hand on my lip trying to forget the subject I removed his hand my head went down in pain I was crying tears flooded my face " you fucking bastard I can't believe you!!!" I slapped his face him paralyzed by it looked at my eyes with tears and I responded " I HATE YOU NEGI I CANT BELIEVE YOU -you prick" my voice was changing I felt pain I ran to the room realizing who the female was it was my friend Sadie.... that slut!!! I thought but then I realized she was my friend and Sadie is a goddamn asexual!!! So I cured myself to sleep Negi coming out of the kitchen kissed my forehead and smiled he said " Sadie is my younger sister" I was shocked I looked at him since I was upset he left for work and gave me a kiss. When I was home I felt sick so I took of my clothes only in a tank top and a pair of comfy fluffy sleeping pant that was pretty short. I laid in bed but then my boyfriend came home and looked at me him saying in my ear seductively your mine tonight I looked at him as soon as he took of his shirt his six pack abs I couldn't stop myself he looked at me and said just kidding silly!! I looked at him a little disappointed but he's still hot he was in the house in his boxers i looked at him most of the time and felt a little red you know soon we changed and I wanted to shower but he wanted to join me so I said yes after the shower him looking at me with a perverted smirk at said " why don't rip your clothes princess" I look at him and blush then we ordered food and watch movies all night soon I got tired and since i fell asleep on him since he was warm in the morning i woke up with him and he was partly naked only a towel covering himself. And I.was hesitant at first but then I gave him a hickey and then he woke up "your good at that he said maybe we can finish it later but on you this time" I was in shock my face was as red as a tomato I said maybe next time getting up to make breakfast.