Sometimes it's hard to be alone even if you prefer it that way.
Hosuh likes to be alone he enjoys being able to keep to himself and have 'me time' but there are downsides to his Isolating habit.
Being lonely wasn't something he really ever concerned himself with he's always been the quiet and standoffish type even when he was younger, but with age comes stupid and unwelcome emotions like anxiety, depression, insomnia isn't really an emotion but it sure sucks too. The silver haired male found it harder and harder to socialize the older he got which bothered him since he was a somewhat sociable child, but as soon as his early teen years hit he started to dislike people more and more until it made him sick. It's not like he didn't talk to people he had and still has friends but he just found it harder and harder to be around even small groups at a time, it's like his lugs would fill up with water and his face would burn like he's sick, and worst of all he'd get dizzy which made it hard to stand or walk.
There was one person who always made him feel better though, Stephen. The Charismatic, loud, somewhat narcissistic, and vibrant haired male. Ever since Hosuh could remember he's always been at ease when he's with Stephen even when the purple haired male makes some rather concerning jokes. Not only was Stephen funny and energetic but he was a great listener.
Hosuh doesn't like to bother his friends, he feels bad about venting so much so he just stops he knows it's not good to bottle up emotions but he's learned to handle the extra stress. Drawing sometimes helps relieve stress but it can also be the cause of such negative feelings.
As of late the light haired male hasn't been feeling great both mentally and physically, he spends most of his time in his room by himself occasionally coming out to eat or use the bathroom but that was about it. This behavior started to worry Stephen. He knows that Hosuh enjoys alone time but something didn't sit right with the psychotic male, he would occasionally knock on his friends door or text him with not much of a reaction coming from the shorter boy.
Things were starting to get worse Stephen couldn't stop stressing over his friends condition, he doesn't want to pry Incase it has a negative affect and makes the silver mans problem worse but it's been about a week since he actually had a real face to face conversation with Hosuh. Stephen isn't the best with sensitive things like emotions and other more serious matters since he himself doesn't go through it as much as his friend, but he does understand Hosuh and that's something he knows for a fact. Him and Hosuh have been best friends for years so he knows what the shorter male goes through and how to help.
Hosuh has shut himself in his room, fearing that if he leaves he'll breakdown again, he can't do that he doesn't want to bother his friends, he doesn't want to bother Stephen. It's hard dealing with self worth and esteem, he's in his 20s yet he still can't seem to feel okay or see himself in a good light, he knows he's loved by his friends and family he knows it for a fact but some part of his brain continues to convince himself that everything is fake and a lie, it makes him tired he just wants to shut his eyes and disappear. But he knows he can't he enjoys many things, loves to many people, and he knows he'd regret it. His eyes burn from crying and looking at the blinding screen of his Devices for so long, he shuts everything off and doesn't even bother to change into more comfortable clothes as he climbs into his bed forcing himself to sleep and hopefully forget he's feeling these things.
Stephen is starting to worry more than he already was, Hosuh hasn't read his texted or shone any proof he's alive. The taller male was so worried he chewed his nails to the point they hurt which is very out of the ordinary for him. That's it, he decided he was gonna just go in and make sure he's not doing something he'd regret. Standing up from his very uncomfortable dining room chair he walked to his friends room trying his best to look as confident as possible even though he was a worried mess at this point although he'd never admit that.
