What Happened to the Good Boy? (What Happened Series #2) *completed*

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Allen's POV

I saw Regan run into the hospital and felt fear hit me. He didn't know I was here. He didn't know I was silently in my car praying to myself. If something happens to either of them I don't know what I'm going to do.

Getting out of the car after praying on last time I quickly headed inside. I spoke to the receptionist without thinking twice about what I was saying before quickly heading down to the number I think she told me. I hesitated before the door. My chest clenching. I am afraid. I truly and stupidly was afraid. Suddenly the door opened and I jumped. 

Alex stood in front of me. Trinity standing behind him. Alex nodded and I stepped aside to let him pass Trinity scurried out behind Alex and both headed down the hall that was labeled food court. The door had closed some but not all the way and I took my chance. Sweat forming on the back of my neck.

I entered the room my breath catching as I looked over at my son. My hands and legs began to shake as I closed the door behind me. Swallowing I approached my family. Regan did not glance at me as he sat in a chair by the bed. Jaydeth's hand rested in his as he squeezed it. I stepped up but hesitated again fear gripping me hard. I didn't know what to do as my mouth opened for words or my hands moved a little for a gesture. Nothing. I felt totally stupid. Another moment passed before Regan was the one to speak.

"Are you going to come sit with your son or just stand there?" Regan's voice was clipped and chided. I gripped the edge of my coat, my palms clammy. I stepped up to the bed next to Regan and grabbed Jay's shoulder hoping for him to respond. He didn't move, even after I moved them away and shook my head a little.

"Did... Did he try..." I branched off and a sigh escaped Regan's lips.

"We don't think so but it's still a chance." He mumbled and I nodded slightly. "So you've decided then..." He trailed and confusion hit me. "I guess that job really does mean more to you. You couldn't even stay home to watch your son for less than an hour. Jesus... if only i knew you...."

"I went to work for the 2 days after it happened..." He scoffed and I hurried to finish but he spoke.

"And here I thought I might have made sense to you." He got up and walked away from me. It was as if he couldn't stand being next to me. That burned my chest a lot. 

"I did it..." He cut me off.

"I don't want to hear an excuse this time Allen. Your addicted to working. Your a workaholic and I cant deal with that. Not anymore not after trying for so god damn long.

 "Listen to me Damn It!" I shouted making him turn and glare.

"What... What could you possibly have to say to me." He whispered pain cracking in his voice, anger in his eyes.

"I went those two days to tell them I was finished and to show my trainee how to completely finish her internship." I said as quickly as possible. He opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off. "I didn't go today. I... I went to the wake to support Ronny, Ronny would have wanted someone other than his fake family there I asked Jaydeth if he wanted to go. I told him I would only be gone an hour. I didn't take no more than ten minutes after an hour to deal with traffic it must have been enough time for him to... I'm sorry ok. Damn I'm sorry, I am so fucking sorry. This is my fault and there is nothing I can do about the fact that my son, had I just didn't try and do a good thing, wouldn't be in this freaking hospital..." I breathed raggedly my hands and body shaking harshly. I shut my eyes tightly. "He... you.. we wouldn't.."

I was cut off my a hard push before arms wrapped around me and I was being pressed heavily to a warm shoulder. Tears breached and Regan's hand went to my hair pulling my head closer. I took deep breaths as he pulled me even closer. My hands moved on their own and wrapped around him quickly. I grabbed his coat desperate not to let him go. I don't know how long we stood their only that the sound of my son's heart beat changed and Regan pulled away.

"Dad...." Jaydeth's voice rang out quietly and scratchy in the soft echo's of the room. Regan and I stepped forward towards the bed. He didn't speak as we touched his arm. His eyes glanced around the room before meeting mine.

"Jaydeth.." I cleared my throat before speaking again. "What happened baby. Why..." I paused unable to speak. Then forced it out. "Why did you take them...?" I asked quietly and he took a deep breath, eyes closing tightly. Regan sat down his hand still holding Jaydeth's tightly. Jaydeth shook his head a little, his eyes opening again. 

"I didn't mean to take them.... I .. I didn't know what they would do. My head hurt.. t.. so bad and my chest did too. I just.. just..." Tears ran down his cheeks in seconds and my heart broke.

"Oh Jay. It's ok we understand." I said running my hand up and down his arm. Then after a few seconds he spoke again swallowing hard with shaky words. 

"Don't be mad at daddy. He just went today for me instead. He was with me all night and all day." He whispered and Regan's teary eyes closed and he pulled Jaydeth's hand to his lips. 

"Ok, Jay. It's Ok. I'm not mad."

My chest clenched.