Dear Diary,
I thought I'd lost you.
When Taehyung and I woke up, we were alone in the house.
Mom left a note saying that the others wanted to go to the lake but "didn't want to wake us up because we looked cute cuddling", and that we could go there whenever we wanted.
My face flushed.
Taehyung was a bit hungover so I gave him painkillers.
And that's when I realized you weren't there.
I looked everywhere.
Taehyung asked me if I was okay from the other room.
I was having a panic attack.
I was sweaty all over, ragged breath, my heart was beating like crazy and the room was spinning.
After seeing me, he immediately said to focus on my breathing and close my eyes. He said to "picture my happy place".
My mind wandered to that street in Japan, where Taehyung had kissed me. In my dream.
After some minutes I finally calmed down. He took my hand and walked me over to the couch, making sure I was comfortable sitting down.
We sat there in silence.
I said thank you.
But I meant something else.
