Dear Diary,
I can't believe it's the last time I'm writing on you.
It's all insane.
I was in a very dark space of mind when I looked through Dad's old things in the closet. I just wanted answers.
Writing my thoughts down was an experience. It really helped me keep my thoughts as thoughts instead of actions.
I remember until not too long ago that waking up and grabbing you was the first thing I did every morning.
Now I wake up tangled up with a cozy body.
"It's all too perfect to be true." Were my thoughts when something good happened.
Instead of enjoying it, I prepared myself for when it was over.
Again, keeping my thoughts as my thoughts instead of actions. This frase wasn't always good.
I'm still learning how to be more accepting of myself. As Jaehee once said, "no matter how small your steps are, all that matters is that you're moving forward". And that's what I'm doing.
I really love my friends. My boyfriend. My therapist. My mom.
As of now, I really love my life.
Thank you for being with me when I couldn't find the strength to love myself.
This is my last goodbye so,
Goodbye, Mister Diary.
-Jungkook.
