My Diary

Talking about random things

january 11, 2020

asexul- The lack of sexual attraction to others, or low or absent interest in or desire for sexual activity.

This is a wednesday day I miss him I just want to see his beautiful smile again, I love going to school because of him nah im just kidding i just go because my mom makes me : ( 

I hadent' told anybody about my crush or anything about him. I just can't, I don't have anybody to talk to, eventhough im close to my big sister, and I have friends. I just don't want to tell them because im embarrsed. Maybe you're like why would she be embarrased, is because i have never like someone. I had never had a boyfriend, crush, and my big sister even though i was asexul, well i think i'm also asexul i just have an interest on him. I think my sister was thinking like that because i told her i was not interest on falling in love or anything like that. I mean when you are about to test the test is more important than your crush so i focus more on my studies rather than boys. On some point i started getting more attracted to him, let me tell you the truth while i'm writing this, i am cringing. Anyways  i also wandered how people fall so deeply, I just avoid falling in love with people all my thirteen years.Well let's talk about other topic I love this korean boys they are not chinese okay, their band name is called BTS any army reading this cliche story. If you're not interest on listening to me talking about BTS you can skip the whole paragraph  that is below i will also talk about me.-

They are in a band, they teach people how to love themselves, i already love myself  i'm confident on my looks : )  . I think im hot nah im just kidding. Listen here people say is not about looks but everyone knows this society is about looks. 

I hope i stop liking him not loving him becaude loving is a strong word

i am wring this on january 24, 2020 and is in a morning on my first block and we are about to start the class bye. wish me good luck.