Chris was sat there on his bed, laptop in front of him, unknowingly stalking Pj. He wasn't really stalking Pj as such. But he had been watching his YouTube videos and vYou answers for the past two hours. He couldn't help it. Pj was just so amazing. He seemed so innocent, so nervous, so, so perfect!
Chris didn't like feeling like this, he hated himself fir thinking of his friend as the most amazing gorgeous guy in the world.
'This is so stupid!' Chris thought to himself. Pj may joke about it, but he will never love me. But maybe I could tell him. Then I will know for sure. Will this help though? I guess you don't know until you try.
Chris picked up his phone and messaged Pj:
Hey Peej, it's Chris! I wanted to know if you'll come over to mine, I need to talk to you,
Chris didn't expect a reply, Pj never really did reply, or at least not to him anyway.
Chris went and sat on his sofa, a random show playing on his TV, and he sat there thinking of what he could say to Pj.
Just as he was beginning to plan everything out, and maybe even adding the responses he wanted from Pj, Pj knocked on the front door twice and walked in. It had always been that way and for some reason it really mattered to him.
"Hey bitch tits! You wanted to talk to me." Pj shouted polite as ever.
Chris smiled, "u, yeah, I know this is quite random but I'm just gonna go out there and say it, if that makes sense…" Chris said quickly.
"Chris, youre not doing very well at just saying what you want say mate" Pj replied
"um, sorry, yes, what I wanted to say is, I really like you, no… I really fucking love you bitch tits. I don't know why but for some strange reason I find everything about you amazing…" Chris said without pausing, he stood there nervously, awaiting Pj's reply.
Pj's POV
Oh jeez this isn't happening. This can't be happening! This is Chris, my best friend, not my future lover. Yeah, he's attractive and funny and brilliant, but I'm not gay, I can't be gay.
"Chris… I like you, but I'm n-not gay" Pj looked at the ground, "I'm sorry Chris."
Chris stood there across from Pj, he was about to cry. He could feel it.
"It's not your fault Pj, don't be sorry. I shouldn't be so stupid"
Chris could feel the tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Is this because of Dan and Phil?" Pj questioned.
"N-no, Pj, I love you because I love you. Not because Phil and Dan are together."
Chris said still crying, he walked to his room. "I'm sorry… Pj… I'm going to bed."
Chris said slamming his door, he threw himself onto his bed and cried himself to sleep.
Pj's POV
Seeing Chris like this is so heart breaking. I walked towards the door, "I'm so sorry" I whispered and opened the door quietly and closed it behind me
*later that day*
Pj was looking through questions he had been asked on his vYou. He saw one asking if he had feelings for Chris, because he jokes about it so much. Maybe him joking about this 'love' is what made Chris want to do this, or maybe it's because I really do love him. No I can't love him. I can't be gay. Unless… unless I hide it from my parents. Yes! But I just said all that to Chris. I hurt him so much. I need to make it right. I need to tell him that he is amazing. I need to tell him that he is brilliant. I need to tell him that he is PERFECT! I need to tell Chris.
"Chris, I'm sorry, I love you too!" Pj shouted to himself. And he went and got in his car and drove to Chris' house and knocked the door twice and walked in. a routine so simple. Yet it means so much.
"Chris?!" Pj called. He was so confused yet so happy with this realisation; he never thought he could smile so big.
Pj walked further into Chris' house and over to his room. Pj could hear crying and his own voice. He opened Chris' door, and saw, sat on the bed what he had caused. Chris was sat in his bed watching Pj's videos, crying. "Chris?" Pj said quietly, he walked over to Chris.
Chris looked up, "W-what do you want?" pain was heard even through his voice. Pj stared at this broken man, all he wanted to do was fix him and make him better.
"Chris, I know earlier I acted terribly, I should never have said you love me because of Dan and Phil. The truth is I reacted like that because I was shocked. I never thought I would hear you say that you loved me, because if I'm honest, I am gay, and I really, truly love you Chris Kendall. I always have. You are amazing, funny, brilliant, smart and just perfect. I now I was being a jack ass earlier. But I love you and if you still want me, I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Pj finished, at this point he was cryong like never before, he had never let this much emotion out in one conversation before. With the most amazing guy Pj earth, he felt so amazing.
"Pj, you broke my heart. How could your feelings have changed so quickly?" Chris questioned
"Chris please let me fix your broken heart. My feelings for you haven't changed, I've always loved you. It just took until now to realise."
Chris walked over to Pj and hugged him. Neither of the males spoke, they were just happy to be in each other's presence, both knew that these feelings were from deep inside, and nothing could change that. Not even Pj being a jack ass.
