Everyone makes it look easy
Normal
But not me
It was painful
But I still kept going
I wasn't sure but I did it
And min later I regret it
I told myself several times I wouldn't
I told myself that he wasn't the right one
I promise I wouldn't
Now I cry
I cry that I have failed the above
And I cry cause I'm a shame to my parents
I look into my sister and feel shame of who I have become
I don't know how to feel
It didn't matter to him as much as it matter to me
I always told myself it was special
But there was nothing special
I felt the same but with a lil but more pain and shame
Maybe if i hadn't
It was my fault
I saw it coming and I prepared for it
But I regret it now
And I which i was the same as yesterday
Innocent
And pure
But I'm not anymore
And I'm scared I won't find forgiveness
I'm scared Something would grow inside me
I'm scared that he will stop loving me after and leave me just like the last
I guess we just have to keep going
And hope we didn't mess up
Even tho it hurts we got to keep going
