HIS TOY - HYUNIN

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"We shouldn't do this is public." Jeongin looked down.

"Then let's go to my house." Hyunjin grabbed his hand and looked at him.

"But do you really want to?" The small boy asked looking hyunjin in the eye.

"Umm...yeah I guess." The elder replied giving a unsure look on his face.

"ok then..." the younger looked away but then hyunjin stood up pulling him up as well. The two walked in complete until they got to hyunjins house. When they walked in the shorter realized that the elders parents weren't home again, but didn't ask about them. Once they were inside hyunjin room the elder pushed the younger down on the bed and straddled him. Jeongin looked away for a second, but hyunjin turned his face towards his and smiled. Jeongin didn't couldn't return the smile before hyunjins lips were on his. The elders lips were soft and warm and they younger couldn't help but fall for the sweet taste. Thoughts of hyunjin and him ran through his mind as the two shared a slow make out.

slow...come and kiss me slow. No I don't have to go.
Show me all there is to know. All of the lights are down but I see right through you dear. I'll love you till it hurts like hell. You don't even have to try I'll stay through mighty swings.

Jeongin wanted it to last forever. As hyunjin wrapped his arms around the youngers waist, Jeongin pulled apart.

"Is there something wrong?" Hyunjin asked looking concerned for the boy. Jeongin then looked away.

"I-I'm fine...just need air." The younger replied, but he was lying. Of course there was something wrong. He was in love with someone who was just using him. Someone who was too good for him. Someone who was eventually gonna end up with someone who wasn't him. He wanted to show how much he loved the elder but he couldn't. The elder didn't love him and it hurt the younger more than he could explain. The one good thing in his life. The one thing he loved was ruining him more than he expected. Tears pierced jeongins eyes as he covers his head in his arms. He tried his best not to cry and it was working until hyunjin spoke.

"Umm I won't see you tomorrow... I have a date with Seungmin." Hyunjin got up from the bed and sat at his desk picking up a slip of paper that read "ill meet you at the movie theater tomorrow at 1 pm ." Seungmin stuck the note in hyunjins locker during lunch hoping he would get it.

"So you don't need me anymore?" The younger still kept his head down because his tears came back.

"No...seungmins too innocent to do this kinda stuff and I want to wait till we're in a committed relationship, so I'll still be using you, but don't tell Seungmin." Hyunjin looked at the younger who was still hiding his face.

"Ok Jeongin?" Hyunjin asked the younger.

"ok" Jeongin said quietly as his tears fell and he sobbed. Hearing the sob hyunjin walked towards him.

"Jeongin are you crying?" He asked but didn't get an answer because the younger shot himself out of the bed and out of the house. He ran against the cold air as his warm tears ran down his face. He ran as fast as he could and didn't stop until he reached his house. When he bursted through the door his parents were fast to get to him, but he was already in the basement before they could through him in there. He sat on the cold floor against the wall and cried until he choked and couldn't breathe. You think Seungmin is too innocent to ruin but your ruining a 15 year old. Your treating me like I'm a worthless piece of meat. You don't care about my feelings, no one does.

The boy couldn't stop crying. It was 3 hours after he got home and he still couldn't get over hyunjin. He turned his head away to wipe his tears when he saw an all familiar piece of glass. The young boy pushed himself up off the floor and walked over to the piece of glass. He picked it up then sat back down in his favorite spot in the basement. That spot was his "depression spot" that's where he got himself. He always cut himself in that spot to avoid getting blood anywhere else.

He brushed over his scarred wrist and closed his eyes as he placed the glass over it. The sun will still shine, the birds will still chirp and the earth will still spin if I were gone, so it won't matter if I were gone.
He slid the glass on his skin causing blood to flow out. Make this the one that kills you Jeongin. Make this the one that will set you free. He sliced a few more time before he was covered in blood and felt dizzy. He stood up and tried to walk but failed and fell back down hitting his head on the floor. He felt his eye lids get heavy and his body go weak. A smile crept on the boys face as he closed his eyes and everything went black.