Fifth Harmony/You Texts

part 16

*Beep beep beep*

I know that sound I don't want to open my eyes to answer the questions I don't know what happened but I have an idea of what I did I promised myself I wouldn't do it again.

"Y/N?" No no no no please don't be who I think it is I opened my eyes but shut them straight away because it was so bright I slowly opened my eyes to see Y/B/F to the left of me with a sympathetic smile "y/n?" I don't want to turn my head at all. But I did it anyway to see the last person I wanted to see I didn't smile my face was like ice.

"I'll leave you two alone for a bit" I heard Y/b/f say I nodded my head not wanting her to be in the middle of this.

"What do you want Lauren?" I said with no feeling in my voice which when I'm hurt is normal because I shut myself out.

"I'm so sorry" she had tears rolling down her face I felt sorry for her I wanted to tell her it's okay but it wasn't she played me.

"Why did you do it?" I just needed to know if she liked it if the kiss meant anything.

"I didn't know what to do she surprised me I'm so sorry baby please forgive me please i need you with me"
She said by now she was next to my bed on her knees crying and holding my hand by now I had a tear down my face.

"Di-did you like it?" I didn't want to hear the answer I wish I could just fly away right now.

"W-what do you mean?" I could feel the hurt in her voice but I still couldn't look.

"You know what I mean. Did you like the kiss?" my voice trembled not wanting to know what the answer would be. Those seconds waiting for the answer felt like hours.

"Why would you even ask me that? Of course I didn't I was just confused." I finally looked up to her eyes and she had tears running down her face I looked into her eyes looking for something telling me she was lying. But there was nothing she was telling the truth.

"Really?" I could see the corner of Lauren's mouth twitch up into a smile her eyes filled with regret knowing that she had hurt me.

"Of course not silly. I only have eyes for you. If you want an honest answer I only dated Camila to make you jealous." I felt a big weight being lifted off of my shoulders right there and then. For the first time since I woke up I smiled

"I really wish you didn't do that. You didn't have to do that." I reached over to grab her hand I didn't care how much pain I was in. "But I think we should start over. We were going too fast we should have started slow." Lauren just looked at me with a smile and squeezed my hand.

"I totally agree with you we should have started off slow and I'm sorry that I rushed it I just didn't want you to go back to Dinah so I wanted to make sure you knew that I liked you without question." Hearing that coming from her just made my heart skip a beat.

"Okay. So what do you say as soon as I get out of here we go on our first date?" Lauren's eyes sparkled with happiness when she realised what I was actually asking.

"Of course I will Y/N" She leans over and kisses me on my cheek then we both jumped to the sound of someone clearing their throat. When I looked over I groaned standing there was Y/B/f
With Camila and Dinah standing behind them. Dinah then speaks up.

"Dint worry we're not here to start anything we just wanted to know if you were okay and I think I speak for the both of us when I say we will not do anything like that again we realise that you two are happy and that's all that matters to us" while Dinah was saying all of this Camila was nodding along agreeing with everything she was saying.

"Thank you guys that means a lot. Now can we go back to all being best friends I miss that. Speaking of best friends where are Ally and Normani?" Lauren asked I just realised they weren't there.

"They stayed back to clean up so you had a clean place to go back to." That's when it all hit me.

I looked down to my arm and realised that it was covered in bandages I just stared at it when I heard a voice.

"Hey are you okay?" I looked up to see Y/b/f looking worried.

"I'm sorry" I looked down ashamed again what I had done.

"it's okay" I cut them off

"No it's not I promised. I promised I would stop" I felt so ashamed of myself

"Wait this has happened before?" Lauren asked worriedly she had so much concern in her eyes it made me feel safe like she would protect me at all costs.

"Y/N has a history of mental health. Would you like me to tell them?"I nodded my head hesitantly

"So Y/N struggles with eating disorders depression and anxiety disorder she has also had problems with addiction in the past." The whole time Y/B/F was talking I just kept my head down after hearing this I won't be surprised if they all ran for the hills.

"Y/N look at me." Lauren grabbed my chin gently and made me look at her. "Don't you ever feel ashamed about your mental health everyone has it just some worse than others. I will never leave your side because of something like this. Never." I didn't realise I was crying until Lauren wiped a tear from my face.

"Thank you that means a lot to me." Lauren leaned close to me and connected our lips it didn't last long but it felt amazing.

Very important question
Should I add Demi lovato to the story?

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Hey guys I'm sorry for the long wait but here you go please comment and vote if you liked it