December 11th
Dear Diary,
The other girl was Chloe. I saw her and Nick kiss in the dancers den today. I saw them kiss. I didn't know it was possible to break a heart that was already broken. But it is, because when Chloe kissed nick I felt an unexplainable pain in my chest and it won't go away... Why won't it go away!
Chloe imagined Brooke sitting on her her bed shaking the book and yelling at it asking why the pain wouldn't go away. Now Chloe had a pain in her chest and she didn't know if it would ever go away either.
I don't blame Chloe though.
Paige and Chloe stared at the book, they were both thinking the same thing "You should."
No I don't blame her or Nick. I blame myself. I blame myself for not trying harder, I blame myself for being such a bad girl friend. Chloe will be a great girlfriend to Nick. She's pretty, smart, talented and nice. All the things that Nick deserves and all the things that I'm not. They'll be happy together. Thats all that matters.
Love
Brooke
Paige pulled her knees to her chest and hid her head behind them."Thats not all that matters Brooke you deserve to be happy too." Paige thought.
Chloe stared at the book uncomprehending, she had no idea Brooke felt that way. How could Chloe have caused Brooke so much pain? She didn't mean to. Then she heard sobs right next to her, she turned her head to see Paige, knees pulled to her chest head down. Paige! Oh god. Chloe rested a hand on her twinnies shoulder "Paige I am so sorry-"
"Don't touch me!" Paige screamed pulling away from Chloe's touch, choking on her tears. Maddie and Kendall both gasped but Chloe didn't hear she was too focused on Paige and the anger she was showing toward her.
Tears were streaming down Chloe's cheeks now. "Paige please I didn't mean-"
"What? You didn't mean to what, Chloe?" She spat Chloe's name. "Steal Brooke's guy? Break her heart? What didn't you mean to do exactly?"
"I never meant to hurt her! Paige please!"
"Get out." It was only a whisper and Chloe wasn't even sure if she heard right, she couldn't have heard right. Paige wouldn't tell her to get out.
"What?" Chloe whispered.
"Get out!" Paige screamed it now.
"Paige, I'm sorry please-" Chloe started to plead but Paige cut her off.
"No! Brooke may not have blamed you but I do!" Chloe stared at her dumbstruck she couldn't move. Kendall wrapped her arms around Paige and she leaned against her crying into her chest. Maddie grabbed Chloe's hand and pulled her her up and out of the room down the stairs and to the door.
"Maddie I-" Chloe began.
"Chloe I don't blame you and neither does Paige. She's just really upset, I think it would be best if you gave her some space let her calm down. You know?"
Chloe nodded what Maddie said made sense. "I'll do that, just tell her I'm sorry and that I love her?"
"I will."
"Thanks Maddie." With that Maddie closed the door and Chloe turned to her car. She opened the door and sat inside. Then the tears came heavier, in rivers instead of streams and her sobs racked her body, she tried to put the keys in the ignition but her hands were shaking too hard. She finally just gave up and cried into the steering wheel banging her hands against it. "I'm sorry Brooke!" She screamed at the sky. "I'm so sorry!"
Maddie took the steps as slow as she could back up to Paige's room. When she opened the door Paige was still crying in Kendalls arms, Maddie sat down and put a hand on her back rubbing soothing circles to try and calm her down. "Chloe say's she's really sorry." She murmured once Paige had settled down, "She loves you."
"I hate her!" Said Paige. Maddie knew it wasn't true but she didn't press it, Paige was just mad she would calm down soon. Maddie turned her head and glanced at the clock, 11:00. "Crap!" She scrambled up from her spot on the floor and grabbed her phone from the dresser.
"Maddie whats wrong?" Kendall asked. Maddie ignored her friends worry and checked her phone. 5 texts and 3 missed calls and one voicemail within the past hour, all from her mom. Asking where she was, demanding she get home. On the voicemail she sounded very angry and said Maddie was in so much trouble. If she didn't get home by 11:30 Melissa was going to kill her. Maddie's curfew was ten ever since she got caught sneaking off to go see Brandon.
"Maddie whats wrong?" Paige asked this time.
"My moms going to kill me I'm an hour over curfew. Kendall I need a ride."
"Yeah sure" Kendall said getting up and grabbing her bag. "Paige are you going to be okay?"
Paige nodded. "Yeah go Maddie, I hope you don't get in too much trouble." Both girls gave Paige a hug before running out the door. And then Paige was alone. She grabbed the diary and flipped it to the next entry.
