It gets really unbearable after a while.
The amount of tears that had slipped down her face in the last hour, were countless. If only you knew how wet her sleeve was from wiping her eyes every second. Life would never be good to her. Again, in her bed, earphones in, drowning out the pain. At this very moment, she realised that she truly had no one. Her mother in the next room knew she was in here, and why. But she didn't care.
No one cares.
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
Now that, really did it for her.
The amount of times she's had to keep smiling, regardless of what's going on behind it. Nobody would understand. Every time she smiled, her heart broke because it wasn't real. What she really longed for, was a true reason to smile.
I wonder how long she would be waiting.
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile what's the use of crying
But at least, she had some form of motivation. Wether it came from a song or not, it always helped. This is what really kept her strong enough to keep on.
Without music she would die.
And now, it was the aftermath. After all the crying, what do you do next?
Do you just lay your head on the wet pillow? Allow your neck to soak up all the remains of your misery? Or do you simply do it all over again? After taking a break from crying, she would remember everything and it would all come rushing back to her. There's no point in trying to stop. It's almost like she was...
Addicted.
