Different Me

two

Two

Six years later

"So tell me, how you like back in England again, sweetheart?" Mom ask from other line of the phone.

"It's okay, London still rainy. Nothing has changed" I sigh, my eyes staring at the distant view of London in the afternoon today. From my flat I can clearly see the atmospheres if London in this afternoon.

"Alright honey, it's kinda late here and I have class tomorrow. Good luck for tomorrow sugar. We love you" Mom's hang up not long after that.

Mom is high school teacher, Dad is out of picture four years ago. He's in heaven now, his beautiful soul will always stay in our hearts.

Tears blurring my view, I think I'm homesick. Oh how I miss my Dad so much, ever since the fatal accident he's have, I'm not the same.

I gained more weight, my skin paled than before, my hair grow lighter.

I don't care what people say about me. I just have to put up with my acting more longer. The people I have around is more like how I have in High School.

I unpacked the last box in the hallways, it was Dad's picture frames. His smiles lighten my cloudy heart. "Daddy, I have my own apartment now. I can make mommy proud now. I'll make you proud, I love you" I kissed the frame glass surface.

I put the frames in the fireplace.

I have my own fireplace.

*****

There's knocks in my door, I set my dinner plate in the kitchen counter. And walk to the front door, I open the door to reveals a girl with blonde hair and bright blue eyes.

"Hello neighbors! Welcome to our neighborhoods! I'm Perrie!" She's loud person, and it remaind me of myself in high school.

"Oh well Hello Perrie, I'm Carla it's lovely to see you" I laughs, she just so pretty. I'm envy of her beauty.

"Oh my god, you have perfect teeth" Perrie jumping up and down, "oh my, please don't mind my awkwardness"

"That's alright Perrie, I used to be that too" I smiled, and glad she smiled back. "Oh would you like to join me? I cook dinner"

"Oh I would love to that my love, but my fiance coming over tonight so I'm sorry, maybe other time?" Perrie offers and I laughs "Don't worry, it's okay Perrie, sure maybe other time?" I smiles.

I walk inside after Perrie excuse herself and walk to her flat which in front of me.

My dinner is calling my name and with open arms I welcome them in my mouth.

If only my five best friends still here to entertain me after I lost my dad, sure I won't be like I am now. The girl that used to be happy. But since six years of apart, none of them I knew about till today. Did Niall married now with kids bouncing around? Or Louis that finally found his other half? Or Liam that finally found his princess? Or Zayn that finally found his soulmates? Or my Harry that finally have his little family?

And then here I am still clueless of what life might be.