letters to my love • [bxb]

4• A Rose meaning love

Serenity Rose ^^     age 16

•• 6:36am ••

two weeks have passed by since my little encounter with Ace in the alleyway. and honestly. seeing him again, i'm not gonna lie but, i am honestly really happy to see him after so long. i'm just upset that he left me hanging like that for so long and leading me on thinking we had something special. but of course, life isn't always rainbows and cupcakes!

walking through the halls so early in the morning should be illegal! i forgot to get my morning coffee so now i'm in a pissy mood with whatever and whoever. Lyla noticed and said for break we could go and get some coffee. which i obviously agreed to, although i gotta wait two whole hours for break to come up! but i guess it's better than nothing

"Eli !" i hear my name being called out as i'm walking to my first period class. turning around i see Lyla wearing her usual attire. consisting of camo clothing and her black combat boots with her hair pulled into a bun today with a few strands hanging out "did you wanna go to star bucks or just a small cafe near the school?" she asks as she makes her way over to me, slinging her arm around my shoulders

i give her a bit of a glare but she just shrugs it off. god she can be a bit annoying sometimes, but whatevs. "i'll stick with a small cafe. i don't think i can handle big crowds right now. i'll probably blow a fuse if someone knocks into me"

she laughs with her hand over her mouth to stifle it a bit. it's not working. "oh my god, dude! i can actuals picture that happening!" she bursts into another fit of laughter imagining me flipping out on someone. her laughing is pissing me off even more now!

"Lyla. i swear to god. you better shut your mouth or imma start on you" i say through clenched teeth. she just looks at me in boredom taking her arm off from around my shoulders "thank you" i mutter

"well anyway gotta go class. i'll see you later!" she yells out as she starts her run to her own class. she is in chemistry right now while i'm in art. it may not seem like it but she is smarter than I... at times. but nonetheless smarter

i continue my walk to my own class as i notice Ace standing in the hallway surrounded by a bunch of girls. gross.

as i'm walking past them i over hear some of what their saying "so Ace. do you have a girlfriend?" one of the many girls ask. even i myself grow curios, he surely has a crush on someone since he did move "no ,i do not" well that's a bit surprising "so like, does that mean i have a chance?" another asks. not gonna lie but that made me a bit jealous.

you can't blame me! he was my first ever crush! of course it's gonna be hard to get over him. what came out of his mouth next shocked me to the core "sorry but no. i have someone else i like and no one can replace him"

....HIS GAY?!!!? omg! he just practically outed himself! i'm not even out yet! and i've been in this school for far too long to know not to come out yet!

i stop in my tracks to and take a small glance at Ace instantly regretting it, as he stares right back at me. the look in his eyes is unreadable. i can never tell what he's thinking, but one thing i know for sure

his gaze was doing something to me. i felt the need to run over to him and push all those girls out of the way. but the sane part of my mind knew not to cause a scene especially with him. after what felt like an eternity of the of us practically eye raping each other, i snapped out of whatever trance i was in when some girl had bumped into me most likely trying to get to her class

"i'm so sorry!" she yells out to me still running down the hall. god! i don't get how people can run?! if i'm late then i'm late! give a fuck! with my mood being even more sour because of Ace (and maybe or not myself too) i storm off heading to my art class with thoughts that won't leave my mind whatsoever

who is it that Ace likes then? is he better than me? is he the reason why Ace never contacted me? does Ace LOVE him??

•• 9:45am ••

finally it's break! i can finally have my coffee! as i'm waiting outside of Lylas class i spot the girl that had bumped into me in the hall. i mentally thank her for that!

just as Lyla walks out the girl walks past the two of us, clearly catching this lesbos attention as she starts ogling her. don't blame her though, she is really gorgeous "woah. who's she?" Lyla says with a bit of a whistle

"i don't know. but she bumped into me by accident before first period in the hall" i tell her as we start our walk through the double doors of the school and heading to Lylas car. nothing fancy, just a Honda HR-V. getting in the car and buckling up our seat belts, Lyla start the engine

i peer out the window as the car warms up and see Ace standing at, what i assume is his own car, staring right into my eyes. his piercing green eyes boring into my own blue ones. as if his look alone had an affect on me he then smirks still holding his gaze. i shiver. i don't know what from but i do and i don't know whether to be scared of that small shiver or to enjoy it... it felt foreign to me, and i didn't hate it

•• 9:57am ••

it doesn't take long to get to the small cafe and since it's not so crowded here it was pretty fast when getting my coffee and finding a spot in the cafe to sit and drink, with Lyla having a coffee frappe and my regular coffee with at three-four sugars. don't judge i have a major sweet tooth. which is bad at times but oh well!

Lyla and i just having small conversations with one another when we heard the bell ring in the shop. me ignoring it because i couldn't care less on who walked in. Lyla however had her full attention on this person, making me a bit curious. who could have caught her attention? she much like me didn't care for anyone but herself and i, and same goes for me (of course we also care about our family but not my point)

i turn my head to see what caught her full attention. and am shocked to see that it was that girl again! i turn back around to face my full fledged lesbian friend and see she is in a sort of trance

and being the good friend that i am. i get up from my seat and walk towards this gorgeous girl and ask her for her name. obviously for Lyla, i'm hella too gay to try to hit on a girl, no matter how beautiful she may be

seeing me come into Lylas eye sight seemed to have snapped her out of the trance. giving me a look of 'don't you fucking dare, shitface!' of course i never listen. why should i? i'm giving her a hand here! finally coming up to her i ask her some questions of:

'what's your name?' "Serenity Rose"
'how old are you?'      "i'm 16"
'do you have any siblings?' "i'm an only child"
'any friends?' "i'm not very social"
'what's your sexual orientation?' "......."

i told her i was gay. i know i'm not out yet, but i think she is also one of us so whatevs. she hesitates with the last question which is understandable, but she eventually admits that she is also gay and likes girls a lot. but is obviously still in the closet much like me

i turn to Lyla slightly and give a thumbs up, which she replies with a death glare then a small head nod looking away

well this is fun!

18/03/2020
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