Him

Note #9

Him,

Wow, long time no speak! It feels like it has been forever since we last spoke. You've been busy, I see. You started dating my friend on the volleyball team. Guess you didn't know she was my friend. But that's the thing with you. You take what you want, with no hesitation. It seems like you're doing this to hurt me. I can see the way you are around her, like you're trapped. Damn, if I could only say these things to your face. But I can't. To you, I'm just the girl who was head over heels in love with you. But times have changed. I've moved on. He might not be the star athlete or the popular kid. But he treats me like royalty, like I'm the only girl for him. You, however, I can't say the same. You treated me like I was a rag doll that you could just throw around. Yet I kept going back to you. I can't figure out why I do. I see the way you look at me from across the room, when you're on the soccer field, hell when you're on the court. But the fact that you can't look me in the eyes when we speak should be a dead sign that this isn't meant to be. But it seems like you're scared. To fall for me again, perhaps. But you're in love with her, aren't you? I see the way you post about her, the way she smiles at you. She makes you happy, yet here we are again. Every time I find someone else, you seem to make your way back. And I let you. But this time is different. He might still be mad about Homecoming, but we'll be fine. He makes me happy, like I'm complete. You, however, will never get to feel like that. You date my friends to fill the god-sized hole in your heart. You use these girls like their ice to numb the pain. But that's the thing, once you take the ice off it becomes red and burns. Karma makes her way back, and she's a bitch isn't she? You'll be back when she's done with you. Have fun getting your heart broken.

-MG