You remind me of a song...

Too Good At Goodbyes

You must think that I'm stupid

At this point Momo was an expert in avoiding people. 

Sure, she was always there when she needs to be. She has a Job at the end of the day.
But that doesn't mean she had to spent the little free time she had with the other eight girls. She actually spent the past few nights in some hotel, close by their dorm. She didn't tell the girls why, she just told them she needed a little creative space.
That wasn't a lie, she was actually more productive alone than she was while the other's are bugging her non stop.

That doesn't mean some people won't stop with that. One Person in particular.

She had to talk to Sana at some point, but she also had to prepare for the heartbreak that came with that.

You must think that I'm a fool

Not that she was in any better place right now.
The evenings that Momo came back to the dorm, because she felt too lonely, Sana wasn't there. Probably at that guys place.

Those Evening were spent in Mina's or Jeongyeon's arms crying.

Momo hated Sana.
She started to open up because she felt safe, but at the end it was just a one time thing.

But yet again, she's still so deeply in love with her best friend. So when she got messages like "I stole a shirt from you because it smells like you and I miss you" or "I dreamt about you today, you smiled as I hold you hand." she cried. but never replied.

She didn't know what to do.
All she did was write.

You must think that I'm new to this

At some point she was at the studio.

When everything was done though, Momo decided it was time to get back. Since living alone in an hotel room without security wasn't the safest thing to do.

But she went back when she was sure everyone was asleep.
She didn't wanna get confronted in the first place.

Since Jeongyeon moved out a few months ago, she gladly opened the door, expecting her room to be empty.

It wasn't though.

But I have seen this all before

Momo silently put her suitcase to the side and changed into her pyjamas anyway.

Slowly walking towards her bed, seeing her now blonde best friend, how clung tightly on Momo's pillow.
Deciding against waking Sana, Momo layed down beside her, facing her.

Studying every little feature of Sana's face.
Momo like'd to describe her sleeping state as close as you can get to an angel, even though she was sometimes far from it.

Momo isn't sure of anything anymore.
If Sana actually got a boyfriend now, why was she in her bed, in her shirt, clinging onto her pillow like her life was depending on it?

Maybe it's Sana's way of missing her friend?

I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me

Momo knew it was soon the time to tell her how she feels.
If she looses her, then she at least could try to move on. Even though she's sure she probably won't be able to.

Momo believed that everyone had a counter part in their life. Someone that is just your second half. Understands you like no one else can. A soulmate even, if you wanna call it that and to her, Sana was that to her

Loosing that will probably tear her apart.
But the unknown will do that too, just slower and more painful.

Sana stirred in her sleep, making a grimace, slowly opening her eyes.

"Momo?" Sana rubbed her eyes, thinking it was another dream of hers. But as Momo answered with a "You stole my pillow" Sana just starred.
Letting go of the said pillow, Momo grabbed it and put her head on it, still not breaking eye contact with Sana.

The night was calm until now, tiny rain drops began to hit the window, actually making a really cozy atmosphare. Momo would have loved nothing more than to pull Sana in and just hug her. Ignoring the past and future and just live for a second.

But the last time she did that, a few minutes later she felt like her heart was torn out of her chest.

Sana was the first one to talk after a while. "Why did you leave?"
Momo pressed her lips together tightly
"I needed space."

'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I'm never gonna get too close to you

Sana swallowed hard. "Why did you ignore me though?" Her voice was tremebling. She was scared of Momo's answer, the rollercoaster of emotions that both of the girls went through was close to break down.

Momo smiled sad, a tear escaping her eye. "I needed space from you."
She answered honestly.

The older one saw how her friend's eyes began to get glassy and so of couese Momo felt the worst she's ever had as Sana also nodded shakingly, now pressing her lips together trying not to let a sob escape her mouth.

Somehow Momo couldn't see Sana hurt, even though she hurt herself over and over again.

Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt

"I- I can go to my room. I'm sorry that I slept in here. I'll wash your shirt and give it back. I-" Sana rambled while crying and trying to get up just to get pulled down by Momo who embraced her, even though the older one told herself not to ever do that again.
But who knows, that could be the last time they could lie down like that.

So they both sobbed themself to sleep, still in eachothers arms.

***

Sana was gone the next morning. Momo would like to say that it didn't hurt but it did.
More than it should.

After the peach got ready she went outside to make herself some breakfast. It's still the most important meal of the day and she couldn't skip it again, since she lost through all that heart ache a few pounds.

Cause every time you hurt me, the less that I cry

After a while other member woke up, a little bit surprised to find Momo here, but they didn't asked why. They slowly figured out that Momo wasn't in a mood to explain herself lately.

If it's too much, Momo could evantually leave the group. She thought while playing with her food.
It was an awful option, she knew that.
Dropping her dream because of a heart break.

And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry

It was silent in their dorm until someone banged against their front door. Chaeyoung grumbled some curse words as she got up to see who it is.

Momo watched the scene as Jeongyeon literally barged into the room screaming. "Where the fuck is she? I will kill her!" Momo groaned, probably some new drama with Nayeon. She shoved her food aside, dropping her head on the kitchen table.

"Why that noise?" Nayeon got out of her room, Momo expecting for Jeongyeon to scream at her but she didn't. "Has any og you looked on their phone today? I have to kill one particular Japanese." That made Momo look up.

Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true

Concern and fear grew inside of her, not sure if she wanna know what Jeongyeon meant.

"Oh no.." Chaeng was the first one to check her social media, briefly looking at Momo. "Wh-what now?" She asked in a silent voice.

Meanwhile Mina slammed her phone on the table, got up and went to her room.

Momo's heart dropped as she got a glimpse of Mina's phone and what the girls were talking about.

A tweet to be exact.

'(★BREAKING) Dispatch Reveals EXO's Suho and Twice's Sana Are Dating'

I'm way too good at goodbyes