TWO WEEKS LATER
I was at home listening to my new song that was recently released called PU$$Y FAIRY.
Because that's what I am.
(you can listen to it in the MM at the top, swipe past the picture of Jhené and Dave)
I had just left the studio and I been feeling really sick for a while and I'm getting fat, I really hope I'm not pregnant.
I ran to the toilet throwing up for the 5th time today, yeah I'm going to get bout 10 pregnancy tests.
I went to CVS and Walgreens and bought 5 from each place.
I didn't care about the stares I got from people, I got a responsibility if I'm pregnant, and I needa find out if I am so I can be a bomb ass mother.
I know it's not Dave's I took 2 test after me and him had sex just to make sure.
But I didn't when me and Jeremiah did 🤦🏽♀️.
Haven't had sex with anyone since him so if I'm pregnant there's no questions he's the father.
I took all the test now I gotta wait.
5 MINUTES LATER
I'm pregnant.
8 of them said positive the other 2 said negative, there's many false negatives but almost to no false positives.
I'm actually caring a baby, wow.
I called up Rihanna and told her the whole story.
"Wait so you mean Jeremiah like from high school, when we were 16 ?? " she asked.
"Yes, Jeremiah Webster" I said about to cry.
Me and Jeremiah have known each other for 5 years but on the 3rd year of us being coo we started getting "close" I lost my virginity to him and he has always been by my side.
I'm scared but if there's anyone I would be pregnant by I would choose him ...or Dave maybe but I've only known Dave for about a month now.
"Well woman up and call him, you knew what y'all was doing so handle it" she said no sugar coating, that's why I love her.
"Okkay I will" I said.
We hung up and I got ready to FaceTime him.
I called, he answered.
"Wassupppp" he said all happy.
I started smiling.
"Hey Jeremiah.. umm we need to talk" I said.
"What happened" he said while walking to his car I think.
"Okkay so when I tell you this I'm telling you because I feel you have the right to know not because I need anything from you" I said seriously.
"Jhené you okkay, but yeah I understand, what's wrong??" He asked.
"I'm pregnant and it's definitely yours." I said.
Then the screen froze then said poor connection and hung up.
Perfect timing 😞.
I called him back straight to voice mail, then I tried again, voice mail wtf.
I just took a shower and said forget it, yes I was extremely hurt he's the only person I really trusted who is a man since those years far back when my dad constantly beat me and my mom.
That's why I don't trust men, everyone has a back story, that why I never really judge.
I must've been in the shower for a long time because I had 15 miss calls, 5 from Jeremiah, and 10 from Rihanna.
Yeah I was in there bathroom for 4 hours, damn.
I called Jeremiah first because I was mad but went straight to voice mail whatever.
I called Rihanna and see what happened.
"Jhené, omgg !!" She said while crying.
"Rihanna what happened" I asked scared.
"Jeremiah got in a car accident and was pronounced dead on the scene look at the news" she said.
I turned on the news and it was true.
My whole world sunk under my feet.
My first love, the person who took my virginity, my boy bestfriend, the person who helped me through my depression and when my dad constantly beat me, and now my future baby daddy, is now dead.
I hung up the phone and just sat there.
That's when I noticed I had a voicemail from him.
"Jhené, babygirl I know you probably mad asf *laughs* but I'm on my way to see you princess , my phone glitched and yo ass wouldn't pick up, but I just wanna let you know I'm happy asf bruhh, the girl of my dreams is carrying my child, you are such a beautiful, independent woman, and I love everything about you and our future baby, I promise imma always be there, okkay I got to go these roads a little slippery, woah, shit almost crashed *nervously chuckles* damn, yo I can't controll my wheel, OH MY GOD, AHHH-" was all the voice mail said.
I dropped to my knees and I bawled my eyes out.
"NOOO WHY OUTTA ALL PEOPLE WOULD YOU TAKE HIM GOD WHY... why why whyyy" I cried screaming at first then weakly.
"It should've been me, all I do is fuck people and waste time, it should've been ME TAKE ME, KILL ME AND KEEP HIM" I screamed while crying.
I started throwing things around my room screaming and crying then I blacked out.
Jeremiah Is Dead, And It Should've Be Me...
