Lost: A Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 12

His hands roam down my waist and rest at my hips.

I take in a shaky breath and prepare myself for the sure to come consequences.

Niall (POV)

Her breathing is ragged and I can't help but smirk at the thought that I did that to her. That just a kiss can make her feel that way.

"Christ," I say," you don't know how long I have waited for this."

I watch her eyes flutter open and they are vivid with emotions. I see desire, a glowing of happiness, and fear. She must be afraid of what comes next. Of where we stand because we've kissed twice now.

God knows that I am too. Just the thought of her taking this moment from me, to have her go back and say that it was a mistake is terrifying.

"Say something," I plead.

"I don't know what to say," she admits," I think that I need time to think.

"Christ Annais," I say," what is there to think? You like me, I like you! We belong together, I know we do!"

She shakes her head," No. We don't. We never did and we never will belong together! "

I feel like the breath is knocked out of me. She really just said this. I knew it was too good to be true. I have to try though, I have to make her see that I'm right. That we do belong together.

"But we do. Just a while ago I asked you if you felt this too and you said yes! You nodded yes!"

Again she shakes her head, like she's trying to clear her head. Like it's all a dream and she can wake up if she tries hard enough.

I continue, "Just a while ago I kissed you and kill me if I'm wrong you kissed me back! So why not? Why don't we belong together?"

I advance to her and she tries to push me away. I grab her hands and pin them between us. She looks up and her eyes are so vulnerable that I feel like I could crush her in just an instance.

Our foreheads lean together and I hear her gasp,"Please don't tell me no. Please. I don't want to lose you now that I know I have a chance. "

I need her to understand me, to see that having her near yet far away, unreachable, is killing me. Jesus Christ, it's killing me.

Annais (POV)

He's breaking down my resolve. If I don't get away from him now I will give in, I know that I will. I don't wanna leave him though not now, not ever, but there's also Ruez. Good God, what am I going to do? I feel like I never stopped liking Niall but I don't want to let go of Ruez, especially at this time.

I try to get out of his hold but it's no use.

"Say yes," he whispers. I swear I hear hope in his voice, hope that I keep giving him.

"Please."

Just that one word. He's broken down that thin barrier I set between us. He's gotten through the walls and there is no way of stopping him now.

Ruez (POV)

Where is she? She won't answer my calls. I need to know where she is!

I know that I fucked up, again, but the only reason I actually told my family is because of her.

I try to call her again but I feel too tired so I lay down for a bit.

I ponder what I should do, what the next step is. I don't wanna lose her, God I don't want to.  I want to wake up to her every day. I want to be with her every second of my life, I would give up going to school and spend whatever time I have left with her, all of it. The thought of me leaving and her moving on sickens me and I know that I should just end this, us, now to spare the pain on both of us. I just can't, she means too much to me. Eventually though, I will, when I die.