Poems of a Teenage Girl

I yearn for the girl...

will my heart ever stop yearning

for the girl I should of been

if my parents paid closer attention

to their daughter who slipped away. 

to the girl who didn't fuck up

the girl who tried her hardest

the girl whose grades where high

and she wasn't on the weekend 

I yearn for the smart girl

the one who was told

'you're gonna to great things,'

now she's just ignored. 

I know who the girl I yearn to be is

it's my sister

the perfect child

the one who never made a mistake 

who never made my parents weep 

who never made them cry

who never disobeyed their god

who never came out as bi 

the one who doesn't waste her time

writing stupid poems

the one who has a job, a house

whose life is a dream 

I yearn for that girl

the one who will never arrive

because lets be honest if she did come

I wouldn't be writing this 

I am the girl who fucks up

the one who is alive

I do my thing and love each minute

and I am not their perfect child.