Waking Up Alone (L.S)

We're Not Who We Used To Be

"We're not who we used to be
We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me
Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat"

Today was a long day filled with travelling, Harry just got back from LA and all he wants to do is go home. He doesn't want to be around anyone right now, he just wants to go home. But home isn't a place anymore, it's a person that he knows he can't get back.

As he steps off my jet, he feels the pain he'd been trying to hide. He's back in London. It's always bittersweet when he comes back.

He knows he'll be able to see his friends and family, but he also knows he'll be so close to Louis without being able to actually see him. No matter what Harry does, he can't get over Louis. It was his first proper relationship and his first love. They have so many memories together, but it's always been hard for them. They were so happy behind the scenes, he wishes they could get back there one day.

"Haz? Mate, you ready?" He was pulled out of his thoughts by his best buddy, Niall. Niall has always rooted for Louis and him, he was almost as heartbroken as Harry was when it ended.

"Yeah, yeah, sorry, you know how it is," Harry wipes a tear as they walk to the car.

"You sure you're up to go out in a couple hours?" Niall asks with concern.

Harry knows he doesn't have to go to this appearance, but it will take his mind off of things. "We can go for a couple hours, have a few drinks and then leave." He responds.

"Alright mate," Niall says in return, "do you want to call him this time? See if he wants to come? I can call the other guys too."

Niall does it everytime, but Harry thinks maybe he should call for once. Would it even be a good idea to see Louis? Even after all this time, he doesn't know the answer. Would it just make him hurt more? Would Louis even want to see him?

He runs his fingers through his hair, letting out a shaky breath as he tries to talk himself out telling Niall to call. "You know what, call them," He hopes this isn't a terrible idea. He knows when he sees Louis, everything will come back, all the feelings he's tried so hard to work through over the last few years. "Maybe this is just what I need, maybe we can talk," No matter what went down, a piece of him will always be holding onto the idea that they can fix it.

"I think it's what you both need. You both are too stubborn for your own good, you know that right?" Niall chuckles, "You guys can't take back what's been said, but there's a chance you two can finally sit down and talk."

Niall's right; they are both really stubborn, everyone around them had noticed.

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They've had this club appearance booked for a few months and even if all Harry wants to do is hang out at home, he knows it's good for him to be around people. Niall and him are the first to arrive, but Zayn and Liam would be there soon. Tonight is just a normal walk in, no special carpet for pictures or anything. All the club needs them to do is be there for their grand reopening. Some pictures would be taken throughout the night for their social media accounts.

The music is loud and the place is packed. Even though it's only 10pm there are so many people drunk dirty dancing already. Niall and Harry are in a booth in the back of the club. It's a little bit away from the dancefloor, so they can actually hear what's being said to each other.

"Did he say he'd come?" Harry asks Niall hopefully. He didn't have the guts to message Louis himself, he didn't want to deal with rejection firsthand.

"He should have been here already," Harry gets in response.

No sooner than Niall says that, Harry's eyes land on the man that will always have his heart. He doesn't think his heart can beat any faster than it is at that moment. He swears he can see the sparkle in Louis' blue eyes from across the club. He has a drink in hand, bright smile on his face as he chats with her. Harry knows it isn't fair to hate Eleanor, she's never done anything wrong, she's just doing what she's paid to do.