11:11 - ross geller

- part 1 -

saturday, february 21st 2001

i layed there worrying. i didn't sleep all night and when it was finally time to get ready, i just wanted to go to sleep. i had to go to that stupid renunion today. i just can't beleive it, after all these years of trying to shut ross out of my life, he's came back into it, and now i have to see him. in high school he was my best friend, but i was madly in love with him. i would never stop thinking about him. and he would just treat me like his sister! i would cry everynight because he had a crush on rachel green instead of me. but it looks like those two are together since there holding this renunion together, i know that as soon as i go into that renunion i'm going to be right back at the start and i'll be drooling over him again! maybe i should just take a raincheck.

it was an hour before the renunion and i was still in sweats laying in bed. jake was at the beach with caroline so i could spend the whole day in my bed if i wanted too. but i felt like if i made an effort to go tonight and dress up maybe instead of me falling for ross, he'd fall for me.

so i decided to get up and get dressed.

i changed into the dress i wore for my birthday last week. it was gorgeous. it was a black strapless dress that flowed outwards at the ends, caroline said i looked stunning with it on but i always thought it made me look fat. but carolines always right so i just put it on. i curled the ends of my hair and put a little bit of makeup on, but i didn't want too make it look like i was trying too hard.

i put on my heels and walked downstairs to have an apple for my lunch. i sat down at the table and started to rethink this whole thing. i really didn't want to start from the beginning and try to get over my love for him. i just didn't want too get hurt again. so i started to take off my heels and my coat. but then it hit me.

i'm being so childish! my crush on ross was in like 1989, i've grew up since then and i think i just need to go over to monica and rachels apartment and have a good time and reunite with my old friends from high school.

so i put my heels and coat back on, walked out of my house and waved down a cab.