The trans boy

Chapter 1

~Erens P.o.v ~

I woke up, my long brown hair almost everywhere. I hate it. I looked down at my chest and there was two breasts. I hate it so so much. I looked in my full body mirror, I wanted to cry and get rid of everything that makes me look like a girl. There is nothing wrong with girls I just, I am not a girl. I am trapped in this unfamiliar body that isn't mine.

Then something happened that just makes this worse. Of course I have to get my period today, when I'm already feeling like shit over being a girl another girly funktion started. I went to the bathroom and I now had to push a tampon in the sex attached to this unfamiliar body.

I went downstairs and looked at my mom and dad eating in the kitchen. "Morning mom, dad," I said and my mom looked up at me and smiled "Good morning Erin," she said and I cringed a little, I hated that name. My father he didn't even look up at me he just said " Have you stopped with the nonsense thinking that you  are a  boy?." I just sighed and shook my head. What didn't he get I am a boy this name, this body it, it just isn't me.

We ate in silence and then I got dressed and ready for school. I was the shy girl in class I didn't have any frindes and I got teased a lot. I picked up my backpack and started walking to school. I whore a baggy hoodie and jeans. I tried my best to hide my kinda big boobs. Why couldn't I have been spared and at least got small boobs but nooo I got freaking melons. My jeans where a dark blue and tight they hugged my curves in a way that made me feel uncomfortable, why didn't I wash the good pants yesterday, I groaned.

I walked into school and went to my locker, then I saw him pass me in the hallway. Him or Levi Ackerman my crush sense I was like ten. But he probably doesn't like me and if he does like me then he won't like me for me because I'm not the girl he passes in the hallway everyday, the girl that never talkes and never looks up from her books or the floor.

I went to my first class and sighed just as boring as always. Class ended and I went to my next class. PE. I should hate PE, but I have Levi in my class. I sighed and headed to PE. I looked at Levi shyly and he looked bored and emotionless but oh so handsome.

We where going to play dodge ball and Levi and Jean where the captains of the teams. They started with picking the best players of course. Then it was just me left as usual I'm last. But then I felt like the happiest person alive, I'm in Levi's team.

The game started and I stayed in the back. Then I heard a voice calling for me "Erin you need to participate," said Mr Pixix. I just nodded and picked up a ball. I slowly walked forward and then I got hit by a ball, hard, very hard in my lower stomach. I looked up and saw Jean with a wide grin on his face.

It hurt a lot and I got to sit on the bench. I watched everyone play and in the end Levi won. I changed back into my clothes and walked out of the dressing room. Then Jean stopped me in the hallway. "What do you want?," I asked. "C'mon honey with an ass like that you're begging for attention," he said and put his filthy hands on my behind. "P-Please stop!," I screamed at him but he just smirked and pulled me closer. I was about to cry. Please don't cry, please don't start fucking crying like a helpless girl, I thought and then I bit my lip and kicked him hard in the balls and ran away, crying.

I sat outside at a cherry tree hugging my knees, and crying into them. I sat there for what felt like hours, but then I felt a tap on my shoulder I looked up and saw Levi. "Why are you sitting here and crying by yourself brat?," he asked. His voice was smooth and a bit cold. "I don't like being this way I wanna change," i mumbled. He didn't say anything else he just sat down next to me. " Well I think you're okay."

He sat with me for a while but then he headed home and I did the same. Why did people have to touch me like that? Why did Levi have to say that I'm okay like this, when I want him to like me for who I am a boy? My eyes where glued to the ground and I slowly dragged myself home, I opened the door and when I thought my day and life couldn't get any worse the universe proves me wrong.

I saw my mother sitting in the kitchen crying and I quickly walked over to her. "What's wrong?," I asked. She looked up at me and tried to calm down. "Grisha died...". I didn't answer I just walked up to my room and cried. Why now? I know he wasn't supportive of me being trans but he wasn't a bad person. I layed in my bed curled up in a ball crying.

~A month later ~

It's been a month sense my dad died and it's starting to get easier to handle and my mom is starting to support me. She said I could cut my hair and change my name to Eren. It made me happy, we signed some papers and now I'm Eren. We're also cutting my hair today I'm nervous in a good way and I think it'll be great.

At the salon I sat down in a pretty comfy chair and a woman with black long hair named Kutchel was going to cut my hair. " Hello I'm Kutchel how much do you wanna cut and do you wanna look at some pictures to choose from?," she asked me and I smiled and nodded. She gave me a book and I turned to a page that said "MAN STYLES" I looked at a simple short cut haired and pontied at it "Uh I would like this one," I said a bit shy she looked a little surprised but smiled. "Of course," she said with a smile and started cutting my hair.

When she was done she gave me a mirror and my moth was wide open, I had tears in my eyes, I wanted to cry of joy. It wasn't a big change but it was an important step for me. "Wow I look like a real boy," I said in amazement. Kutchel chuckled " Well you are a real boy aren't you?," she said like it was obvious that I was. Couldn't she see that my body was like a girl's or did she just know that I was trans and accepted it like it was a normal thing? I just smiled at her "yes thank you so much," she looked at me and my mother and said " It was my pleasure  thank you for coming"

I walked out of the car and through the door to my house my mom looked at me and smiled. " Such a beautiful son I have," she said and in that moment I couldn't keep the tears in I cried at that small comment. My mom calling me her son for the first time was the greatest thing that happened today. "I love you mom," I sobbed and hugged her tightly. "I love you too Eren".

~Soo that was chapter one this story I'll try update once or twice a week sorry I'm a bit busy with school and I really hope you like this one ~