Broken i cant be fixed (boyxboy emo)

chapter one (damian in the pic)

* Damian POV*

Its currently 2:30 am and i have been tossing and turning all night long, I cannot sleep at all no matter how hard I try to fall asleep. I sit up and start thinking about life and I feel a tear run down my cheek and the next thing I know I'm crying....,*sighs* great another night I'll cry myself to sleep... Sooner or later I fell asleep crying, least I got some sleep.

*3hours later*

* back seat sernade dizzy hurricane oh god I'm tired of sleeping alone l, you're salty like a summer day kiss the sweat away to your radio" my phone goes off at 5:30 am ugh its time to get up to go to school. After about 5minutes I finally decided to get out of bed, I walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth, when I got done brushing my teeth I look into the mirror I'm so pale and ugly I absolutely hate how I look. I look at my arm and see my faint red lines from my old cuts, I run my hand over them *sighs* I feel so lost without my scars there fading away day by day...

After looking at my ugly self in the mirror I plug I'm my hair straightener and I go back to my room to pick out my outfit. By the time I'm done choosing my outfit and putting it out on my bed my hair straightener beeps signalling its hot and ready to be used. I go to the bathroom and straighten my hair, I style it my emo way and push my fringe to the side, I play with my hair until I'm satisfied with it. Now its 6:00am and I have to leave in 10 minutes. I go to my room and I put on my favorite falling in reverse long sleeve shirt, a red Beenie, my black skinny jeans and some bracelets, and my favorite pair of black converses. When I was done putting on my outfit I looked at the clock its 6:05am I have 5minutes left to go to my bus stop. So I grab my things and put them into my backpack and I grab my phone. I turn my phone on silent and I grabbed my black coat and I was out of the door walking to my bus stop. I plugg in my earphones and blast be my escape by relient k. In my earphones and I wait patiently for my bus to arrive... I already want this day to be over

* at bus stop*

I get to the bus stop and wait for the bus while listening to music, im hoping the bus hurries up before Jake comes.... Jake I hate him all he does is call me names and beat me I dont know what I did to him, luckily the bus came as soon as Jake was walking up phew that was close...

*on the bus*

I get on the bus and I sit in my seat in the very back, when I get back there I see Jake sit with josh and his other friends. I look away and listen to my music and think about josh, he's one of those popular boys in school and I have the biggest crush on him, I don't get it he's friends with Jake and all of his other friends and when they call me names or hit me or punch me, Jake just stands there and doesn't do anything and I always try to understand why. As I was staring out of the window, and ball of paper was thrown at me and I hear people laugh, which I'm assuming is Jake and them.... I pick up the wad of paper and read it and it read hey emo fag, why dont you do everyone a favor and kill yourself? Everyone would be happy no one likes you!! See you after school you emo fag! I almost immediately started crying, but I hold back the tears I hate crying in front of people... I look over to Jake and them and they're already staring at me laughing their asses off .... Great today is probably going to be worse then usual I sighed and thought to myself maybe I should go kill myself I'm tired of this pain. As soon as I thought this the bus came to a Holt indicating we were at school i get off the bus and walk to the gym and wait there untill the bell ring to go to class. I sat at the bottom of the bleachers in the corner by myself bc no one likes to sit with me. *Ding Ding* the bell goes of and i jolt out of the gym and i go to my locker. I put my bag away and i get the binders i need. As im closing my locker i hear jake and them walking behind me i think to myself well shit i need to hurry up i try hurring but it was to late jake already threw me into my locker i banged my head and god damn it hurts now i have a headache gosh i want this day over i thought to myseldlf...