The Man I Thought I Loved ( R.Kelly)

Chapter 19

Things was quiet in the house today

The kids are at my aunts in Michigan for 2 weeks spending time with the other side of the family

Kel is at his other house

And im damn sure sitting outside of it

" What we gone do " kym asked

" i want to say walk in there but i know ima get turned around so ima send someone in" i said

Trying to think this out carefully

"Wait no way no no no no no you dont know what the hell he doing in there"

"Your right"

I bit my nails trying to think

"a spa?" She asked getting excited

I laughed at me making her so spoiled

" yes with a spa"

As we relaxed an idea came to mind

" i dont think we need to do anything we just wait" i said relaxing to my tense shoulders being rubbed and relaxed

"Huh why" she asked

" the media is going to crack the code before we do he already has some allegations against him i really love him but i hate him now more than ever"

"Why"

" because men never change we are starting to get into more fights now and he has been honestly beating my ass  i cant fight back against him cause he is a man i feel so helpless at times but as long as my kids cool im straight "

"Why dont you leave" she asked

" i want him in there lives as much as possible and not just as a memory "

I sighed

"I had him sign everything over to me so when he get arrested its all going to be mine and he wont be able to fight me in court if i divorce him"

"Whaaaat when did you do this" she asked i can hear the curiosity leaking in her voice

"When he got drunk the other night i told him it was for a project i was doing with opening another shop which i am doing he just forgot he signed it the other night" I giggled

She busted out laughing

" who taught you how to move like that "

" survival im never going back to the way i was before struggling living pay check to pay check im done with that"

It was a quiet night tonight he stayed gone he finally came in at 2 am

i sat in the living room

" so this what we finna start doing now" i asked him

" i was at the studio what are you talking about" he said going to the refrig

i took all the food out

"WHERE THE FUCK IS ALL THE FOOD YOU JUST BOUGHT " he yelled slamming the refrig

i laughed

"you seem upset" i smirked at him

"if you think you coming over here to hit me cause you look pissed i make one call you never see me or the girls again "

He leaned against the counter in frustration

"where is all the food babe im hungry"

"i used my personal money to buy it so whatever bitch you be and or been with can go and feed you "

" i will not stand  for you to be out and not calling AND TEXTING ME BACK I BEEN TO THAT DAMN STUDIO AND YOU ALWAYS LOOK DOWN AT YOUR DAMN PHONE TEXTING BITCHES"

" THERE IS NO OTHER FEMALES WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT" he yelled back

Im so over this marriage right now

" I CANT EVEN TRUST YOU BECAUSE LOOK AT YOU , YOU CANT EVEN STAY SOBER WHEN I NEED YOU IM SITTING HERE STRUGGLING AND YOU OUT ALL TIMES OF THE NIGHT AND THE MOMENT I WANT TO DIVORCE YOUR ASS YOU GONE WANT TO FIGHT AND TRY AND TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME ''

I yelled back so i guess this is going to be an yelling match

" ITS HARD FOR ME TO-" He started but i wasnt having that shit

" WHAT THE FUCK IS SO HARD FOR YOU WTF DO YOU DO EXACTLY HUH I WATCH THE KIDS WHILE YOUR TOURING I FEED THEM WHEN YOUR SLEEPING I ENTERTAIN AND PLAY WITH THEM WHEN YOUR DRUNK AND HIGH I DO EVERYTHING MY DAMN SELF YOU WANTED TO MARRY ME AND HAVE KIDS BUT YOUR NOT AN HUSBAND YOUR AN BOYFRIEND AND A BOYFRIEND I DONT NEED TO BE AROUND MY KIDS!"

He stormed up to me

i stood with my back straight and shoulders back

" Them are my kids too" he said just above an whisper

And for the finishing touches

" NO THEYRE NOT YOU PUT DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ABOVE THEM IM THE ONLY PARENT THEY KNOW BECAUSE IM THE ONLY PARENT THAT ACTUALLY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT THE FEVERS  AND DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS THAT I HAVE TO  GO ALONE TO  AT TIMES OR WITH MY GIRLS AND POTTY TRAINING ..YOUR NOT A FATHER YOUR A PIECE OF SHIT WHOS TEACHING THE KIDS THAT THIS IS THE KIND OF MAN THEY WANT TO MARRY AND HAVE KIDS BY AND GO THROUGH THE SAME THING MOMMY HAS BECAUSE THATS ALL THEY ARE SEEING WHY THE FUCK DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE THERE FIRST EXAMPLES THAT THEY LOOK UP TO AND LEARN HOW TO DEAL WITH LIFE FROM AND YOUR TEACHING THEM THAT DOING DRUGS AND DRINKING IS OKAY !"

I COMPLETELY blew up at him

He looked at me walked out the door

He fucking pathetic I CANT BELIEVE i married such a piece of shit