She's Mine

Chapter 16: The Pain

Emma's POV:

It's crazy how happy I feel. Being pregnant this 2nd time around is so nice. It's nice to have Liam around to watch my barely existent belly grow into a welp of fat. We've decided to wait until I'm further along to tell the family. Liam had left the house that Tuesday morning and took off for work with Jamie so he could be dropped off at daycare. I had an ultrasound this morning to check up on the baby and get the gender. I was desperately hoping for a girl. I would get the gender sealed in an envelope and hand it off to Harper who was in charge of our gender reveal. 

When I arrived at my doctor's I only sat waiting for a few minutes. Once I was called back the doctor ran a quick vitals check and we headed back for the ultrasound. I was so excited. As soon as the cold gel hit my stomach my nerves settled and the image appeared. A rapid heartbeat and a perfect baby. 20 weeks and our baby was perfect, I counted all the feet and toes.  The doctor took some measurements and said the baby looked perfect. She wrote down the gender and sealed it in an envelope. I was so excited to get home. I scheduled my next appointment for 2 weeks and headed out to my car. As I sat in the car tears dripped from my eyes. This is how it should've been from the beginning, Don't get me wrong. I was beyond grateful for Jamie's pregnancy, he healed all the brokenness and pain but I missed having the love of my life by my side. This time from the moment I found out Liam was right there. All the appointments and sickness and emotions and he was right by my side. He made all the pain of Jamie's birth seem so happy. I knew I would never have to be alone again, not with my wonderful husband by my side.

I made the drive home. As I was stopped at the stoplight I looked to check my phone and saw the cutest picture Liam had sent me of him and Jamie before dropping him off at daycare. As I sat in the car waiting for the light to turn green Harper called. 

"So how was it?

"Amazing, I am so beyond excited to find out the gender." 

What are you hoping for 

A girl, We need to even out the score. I need a little girl to spo...

*CRASH*

Emma? Emma? 

All Harper could hear on the other end was a loud crash. She had no clue what had happened but the phone hung up and she worried about what had happened. 

2 Hours Later:

Liam's POV: 

Harper had called me in a panic saying Emma had been in a crash and was at the hospital. I called my brother and asked him to pick up Liam for me and bring him to the hospital, When I arrived the doctors had told me that Emma was still in surgery and things were complicated, No one had even told me what happened. Harper and I sat in the waiting room for 3 hours waiting for someone to notify us of what was happening.  

A doctor finally came and said she was awake and out of surgery, Only one person at a time was allowed back to see her, and I went first. The doctor explained to me what had happened, a few broken ribs, a ruptured spleen. But the last part is when my heart dropped and realized I wasn't listening anymore. "The baby didn't make it, The bleeding was too intense and severe." My heart dropped, I had to know tell my wife that in a car crash versus a semi-truck had taken the life of our unborn child. A took a deep breath before walking in. 

She lay in the bed still lightly sleeping, I sat down in the chair beside her and held her hand as I watched her breathing as her chest rose and fell. I knew she was asleep by the snores she made, I knew it was louder because of her ribs, every time her chest fell her mouth would take a sharp intake of breath through her nose. 

* Luke's FlashBack*

I watched as Emma lay asleep her loud snoring was the cutest and most annoying part that I loved about her. She was watched in the sheets of my bed. I propped myself up on my elbow and admired her as she slept. Her tangly naturally brown hair stuck to her face, her naturally tan skin, and the freckles sprinkled all over her face. It's so crazy to think that here we are at 17 and in love and getting to lay in bed with the love of my life. 

She finally fluttered her eyes open, she adjusted to the light and I admired her beautiful grey-blue eyes. I always imagined our kids would have Emma's eyes. 

She chuckled as she saw me staring  

"What are you looking at" 

"Oh, you know just my gorgeous girlfriend. " 

She laughed and snuggled into me. She leaned up and placed her lips on mine. As we moved with a passion I couldn't help but direct her body directly undermine. She curled her hips up and a deep breath hitched in me. She laughed. She knew exactly what she was doing. She threw her arms around my neck and pulled me closer to her. I adjusted myself and angled my body, she breathed heavily as I pushed myself into her. She moaned desperately and threw her head back. The faster I went the more undone she became. As soon as I finished she sighed. I was still lifting myself over her, making sure not to hurt her. I moved her hair and kissed her nose.  

In my mind I knew that was the last night we were together before I left, I knew that was the night our Jamie was created. I can still remember the feeling of bliss and being so in love. Out of our love our beautiful son was created. When Emma became pregnant again, everything reminded me of that moment. I would finally get to be by her side through the pregnancy and make it to the end, the moments I missed with Jamie I would finally have. My dreams crushed as my mind pulled me back to Emma's snoring. 

I sat in the chair and kissed her hand as I cried. I mourned our child, but mostly I mourned having to tell my wife, who was so excited to have another baby that our baby would no longer make it to see her mom. 

Yes, her mom. The girl that Emma wanted, was the girl we lost. Harper told me the conversation they were having on the phone. While we were waiting my brother got as much from the car he could. Sitting in her purse was the envelope addressed "Gender". I opened it, I had to know. A part of me thought if Emma doesn't make it I need to know. I never expected to lose the baby. I hoped so much that Emma and our child would be alright. As I opened the envelope, I smiled, and for a moment I forgot I was in the hospital waiting on doctors to update me. I saw the 4 lettered word right in the middle of the ultrasound "GIRL". We were having a girl. 

Sorry, we had a girl. My heart dropped when I looked at Emma's eyes fluttering open and looking at me. 

She looked up at me with her big bright eyes and smiled very softly. I waited for her to speak. 

"Okay, Luke. Tell me the bad news." 

I looked back down at her with a questioning look. 

She sighed, "You think after all these years I've known you I don't know when your dreading saying something?"

I took a deep breath, "Emm. The car crash caused a lot of internal bleeding. The doctors tried their hardest, but we lost the baby."

She sighed and turned away. She didn't like to cry in front of me. I closed my eyes and kissed her hand.

"It was a girl right?" she whispered as tears rolled down her cheeks. 

"Yes, baby. It was a girl."