She's Mine

Chapter 10: Where I'm Meant To Be

Emma's POV:

Once those words slipped from his mouth I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. I wiped the tear off my face. I was about to speak when Jamie looked up at me and started to cry.

I turned around and sat him on my bed.

I walked back towards Luke and said "I'm sorry, I really want to talk but he's been fussy because he hasn't slept and he won't sleep unless I'm in bed with him. But I promise we will talk but I have to tend to him right now."

Luke nods and walks down the stairs and leaves. I watch him leave and it kills me to not ask him to stay. But once again I just have to stay while he leaves.

I cracked my door and sat on my bed. Jamie had started to scream, but as soon as I got into bed he quieted down and was quietly crying. I grab his bottle from my nightside table and he scooted towards me. I pulled him up to my chest where he lay on me. It was one of his favorite places to lay, I don't know if he likes my heartbeat or just enjoys knowing I'm right there with him. As I gave him his bottle his eyes slowly dropped. He had finally fallen asleep. I took the bottle and replaced it with his binky (Pacifier). I laid him next to me and I propped myself up. A few minutes after I sat and think about recent events Harper walked in. She stood next to the bed and sighed.

" So what are you going to do chicka?"

"Honestly Har, I have no idea. I mean I know I need to talk to Lu.."

And without even finishing my sentence. Harper sat down on my bed.

"Go, Em's. He has loved you ever since highschool. Even after everything, I saw his face when he thought you had moved on and I stood by your side when he left. That man changed your world and he came back for you just like you waited for him. He loves you, so go... Go talk to him. I've got my nephew he'll be fine with Auntie Harp"

I cried, my bestfriend knew me so well. I gave her a hug and jumped up and put on my shoes and grabbed my keys and jumped into my car.

I had no idea where I was going but I'd hoped Luke would be at the place I was headed to. The place where we laid underneath the stars after graduation, the place where he first told me he loved me. It was an abandoned farm with a pond and a huge weeping willow tree. I always said one day when we were older I wanted a house built and a big swing right underneath the tree to just watch the stars and watch our future family run around the yard. Anytime something seemed to go wrong I always found myself there and so did he. I pulled up and parked. I ran to the tree. I arrived at the tree and closed my eyes. I loved the view. I walked up to the tree and ran my hands over what was engraved onto the bark.

E+L FOREVER

A smile was placed on my mouth after thinking about all the memories I shared with Luke and all the things he had missed out on with Jamie. I looked around from the tree, and suddenly I saw him. Luke, he was sitting at the edge of the pond throwing rocks. I walked slowly, he didn't notice me until I had sat down right next to him. He didn't look at me, and we sat in the silence for a second until I spoke.

"Luke, I'm sorry. I know you without even looking at you. You are upset and I understand an...."

I was cut off when he kissed me.

Luke's POV:

I kissed her. I don't know why and I know I shouldn't have but I did. I looked at her and my voice started to break as I spoke.

"I didn't just come back because I was moved. It's hard over there. I was scared I was going to die every day. Over there your fighting for yourself and your country. But you do your best to follow orders. And if your fighting for someone that's what gets you through it. You either fight for someone or die fighting. I always told myself. Once I got my break, I would come home to you and everything would be okay. But Em's it's so hard over there, death is a daily thing that you try to not be phased by. But it is so hard, especially when you watch friends die. I came back because I lost it, over there it changed me. The whole time I was on the way back I just thought to myself I don't deserve this life. Over there things happened and now I'm scared I'll never be myself again."