Dying For Love

Chapter 8

"Yet another member of One Direction has been murdered, this time, the body so dismantled that they'll have to take him somewhere and try to find out who it is by picking through the pieces of what's left." 

Harry was at it again. He had gotten some wild hair up his ass and decided to go kill someone again. But instead of getting mad you want to know what I'm going to do? Instead of getting mad at Harry i was going to get real even with him. I wasn't going to do anything crazy like kill his family, but i was planning on doing something so horrific that would only affect him. Something like hire a professional spy to alter his life in every way he could or have a person come through in the night and cut his balls off. Something along the lines of that.

But a professioanal spy would require a lot of money and so would anyone who was going to cut a guy's balls off without killing him in the process. So maybe I should just make a plan so elaborate and detailed that would make his life so miserable that he wouldn't want to go on living anymore. 

But I don't want to kill him off either, tho he's killing people I don't think i should kill him because then I'd become the killer. 

"Hey, while you're thinking of a plan over there, I suggest you just call the police," Lilly says inturpting my thoughts.

"Call the police? Wait, how do you even know that I'm thinking, or what I'm thinking about?" I say in complete shock that I hadn't thought of something so easily that was right in front of me. 

"Well, when you think you make this weird scrunched up face, and the news just said that someone else from One Direction was killed, which means you were thinking of a way to stop Harry from killing someone else." Lilly told me, she moved closer to me and whispered in my ear, "I know how you think."

"Well, the police wouldn't believe me anyway. Do you know how many mean reports are out about him? I can count them on one hand and probably all of them are from un-trusted gossip sites anyway. So then why wuld the police believe that Harry would ever even lay hands on a fly. Much less from the girl who just broke up with him? That just screams fake all around," I say in almost one breathe. 

"Hey, Alli, look at me and calm down. If you want I can call for you, but what I do know is we should call the police and tell them before Harry goes crazy again, okay?" Lilly said taking my hand in hers. I looked her in the eye and nodded. As she took the phone and began to dial the number for the police she looked at me, so lustfully, like she used to do when we were about to experience each other, and then she sighed and dialed the number. 

As she talked to the man on the other line I couldn't help myself but think about how Lilly had looked at me. Just the way others had before and I realised that i was a comeplete and total bitch. I was selfish when it came to others feelings and i never paid any attention to what others thought. I was selfish when it came to my dad's feelings, Harry's feelings, even Lilly's feelings. 

And suddenly I wanted to run away. I wanted to be in a lone forest some where far far away from people. So I wouldn't have to deal with other's feeling and thoughts. Where I could be selfish without a care in the world. I could honestly survive on banana's and leaf's. I wasn't that picky of an eater. 

There i went being selfish again, wanting to leave everyone and drop everything so I wouldn't have to deal with anything. When instead I could thinking of ways to fix everything that I had ever broken. I'd have to start with my dad being he's the one I have broken most. But how would i do that? I could always say sorry.... But then again sorry doesn't really fix anything unless your both children. And though I may be his child I'm not a kid. So maybe i could try and write him a heart felt letter. One that explains how sorry I am that I've mis-behaved all my life and how much I do honestly love and apperciate all he does for me. That seems like it'll work.

Then I'd have to go to Lilly. I've been such a terrible friend to her and I don't even know how to try and make it up to her. I could always get back together with her because as much as I hated to admit it, I missed us being lesbian lovers. We were the best thing in the world. Anyone who gave us a weird look would be flipped off in an instant, we always went out on dates and snuck out late just to see each other, and if we were feeling some type of way we'd pay for an hourly hotel and have our ways with each other. But I don't want to break her heart again like i did before. I was stupid and I didn't know what I was doing. We had just gotten into a fight and I went to a bar and got super drunk and that's actually when I met Harry. He took me to his house since I was obviously too plastered to go back to my own and he waited for me to sober up before talking to me. In that instant I told him that I was single and I had sex with a guy for the firt time. I then came home, hand in hand with Harry and when Lilly saw that I felt as though i had taken her heart and shattered it into pieces and then laugjed while she tried to put them back together. We never officially broke up but Harry and I had dated for a long time and by that time Lilly and I had just assumed it was over. 

Then there was Harry. I honestly don't know how I'd make anything up to him. He's killing people to win me back, but I don't want him at all. I want Lilly and I want Harry in jail. I feel that if I were to put him in jail he'd find a way to get out quickly and come after me to try and kill me. I didn't want that but I didn't want to get back together with him again either. Suddenly I pulled out my phone and without even thinking I texted Harry. (this part is coller on a computer) 

  Harry, what do I have to do for you to stop killing people?

                                                                                                           I don't know what your talking about love

You know exactly what I'm talking about and I want a real answer

                                                                                                           I have one but you never listen darling

There must be something else that you want Harry

                                                                                                       Maybe one thing, but you won't do it I know

Harry I'll do almost anything

                                                                                        Run away with me... We'll never have to hide again

Harry...

                                                                                                                                 I knew you would say no

Harry, don't....

                                                                                                                     It's already gonna happen now ;) 

And that was it. I had just killed someone else from One Direction all because I wouldn't run away with Harry. This one was going to be all my fault, as if the rest weren't. Every person Harry had killed and was going to kill was because of me, because I wouldn't get back together with him. Because I was selfish. 

"Hey, they said they'll look more into the eveidence and continue to call us as they get more." Lilly said patting my lap. 

"I...I just killed someone else..." I tell her on the verge of tears. She looks at me stunned then takes my phone and reads the text. 

"Fuck Alli, you didn't kill anyone, you've never killed anyone, Harry's the one killling them okay? None of this is your fault." she told me. I started crying because I just knew she was wrong and nothing she could ever tell me was ever going to make me feel like I didn't kill them myself. 

"Come here," she said taking me into her arms. I cried in her chest, more and more tears coming out as she held me tighter and tighter. 

"None of it is your fault..."