Fear Factory / reddie circus au

Sixteen - Gone

"You are going to hypnotise Eddie Kaspbrak out of love with you."

Richie's mind froze. He couldn't comprehend what he had just heard. He felt overcome with nausea and the desperate desire to vomit. And for a first, Richie Tozier didn't know what to say.

But Eddie did.

Eddie let out a strangled gasp of horror, his dark brown eyes glistening innocently no longer.
"No Bill... you-you can't!"

Bill looked at at ground, trying his best not to look at Eddie.

"Bill please!" Eddie squeaked, his eyes filling with silver tears, "Billy!"

Richie watched as tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down Eddie's face.

Eddie could feel the muscles in his chin tremble like a small child as he looked anywhere but at Richie. There was static in his head once more, the side effect of this constant fear and constant stress enveloping his tiny body. He could hear his own sounds, like a distressed animal, raw from the inside.

It took something out of Richie he didn't know he had left to give. That's the way it is when people are strong. It's like a theft of the spirit, an injury no other person can see. But Eddie saw it. Eddie saw the exact moment Richie's heart splintered.

Richie finally spoke up.

"I don't have to do anything for you," he hissed, "You've messed my life up enough, bringing me to this shithole. Your not going to make me take away the only fucking thing I have left!"

Bill looked up at Richie, still avoiding looking in Eddie's direction.
"Oh but you do, Tozier... because if you don't, your boyfriend will suffer for your selfishness,"

Richie was quiet, his body limp but still quivering with fear and anger. He couldn't bare the thought of what they'd do to Eddie. He loved him. And he wasn't afraid anymore.

Eddie could practically see the cogs whirring in Richie's mind, but nonetheless Eddie already knew what Richie was going to do. It was written on his face.

"No Richie." Eddie snapped, causing Richie to look up at him guiltily, tears forming behind his glasses.

"Ed's...," Richie began but Eddie cut him off,

"No Richie! I don't care what they do to me. I don't fucking care. I want to keep loving you forever. I never want to forget this, Richie please!"

Richie let out a strangled sob as tears slipped from his auburn eyes, his mouth quivered into a wobbly line.

"Richie please!" Eddie begged again, he could see the hurt in Richie's eyes but he could tell the boy had already made to his mind, "Richie I love you! And if you love me too then you wouldn't do this. Doing this will hurt me more then anything they could possibly do to me."

"Ed's!" Richie shouted, abruptly slamming his body backwards into Stanley who still gripped him tight, causing the curly haired boy to loosen his grip and let Richie break free.

Richie ran over to Eddie and placed a hand on the sobbing boys cheek. Eddie just nuzzled his head into Richie's palm weakly, tears still streaming down his cheeks.

"Eddie," Richie whispered, "I am doing this because I love you more. Because you deserve to be safe. I would never be able to forgive myself if they hurt you. You deserve all the happiness in the world... I just can't give that to you, not anymore,"

Both boys just wept in the presence of each other. Scared of the unknown that brewed like a dark fog around them. A fog they were about to step into.

"I'm sorry Eddie, but I have to do it." Richie cried, hastily pulling away. His whole body shook violently as sadness poisoned his body.

"Rich," Eddie sobbed. He could see Richie taking deep breaths. Eddie began to panic, he could tell Richie was trying to pull himself together enough to do the hypnosis. Acting on pure desperate instinct, Eddie called out.

"Bill!" He squealed abruptly at the boy who had been surprisingly quiet for a while. Causing the guilty looking boy to glance up with his blank green eyes.

"Billy please don't do this. You don't have to do this! Remember. Please remember, when we were little we used to play out in the woods, make dens and play in the stream. We used to mess around in our trailers and play hide and seek. We were so close Bill. Best friends... I was there when you lost your first tooth and when you got your first crush. I was there when you couldn't get that one trick on the unicycle, it frustrated you so much, but you pushed on. I was there when you did it right the first time. You smiled so widely... And your stutter. You used to stutter all the time, Stuttering Billy we called you. Bill, please remember. You are in there somewhere. Please. It's Eddie. Don't make this happen,"

Tears started to form in Bills eyes, his eyes screaming that there was a boy trapped inside behind the blank face.

"Eddie," Bill murmured, his voice jagged and rough, his body twitching unnaturally, "I'm sor-,"

Bill's whole body froze, like he had been paused in time, his mouth hanging awkwardly open in the same position it had been in mid word.

Richie turned to look at the paralysed boy, frozen with a fearful expression on his face.

Suddenly, Bill's eyes rolled back till only the whites of his eyes showed. His mouth curled into an ugly snarl, the corners of his mouth riding unnaturally high up his cheeks. He lunged forward towards the boys causing Richie to jump.

"Richie Tozier!" Bills screeched in a voice that wasn't his own, "Do it now. Now! Or I will fucking end him!"

Richie's eyes widened, panicked. What the fuck!

"I'm hungry!" Bill screamed, reaching both hands up to his face and pulling his cheeks down, tugging his bottom eyelids down too, exposing the pink flesh.

Richie turned to Eddie. Fear streamed across his face.

"Eddie I'm sorry, it'll all be over soon. It'll all seem like a bad dream."

"Rich no ple-,"

Richie snapped his fingers and Eddie's eyes instantly became still and fixated on Richie's hand. His face falling expressionless.

Richie took a deep breath but it wasn't enough to prevent the fat tears that rolled down his cheeks. He couldn't believe what he was doing. His heart was shattered.

He leaned forward and whispered into Eddie's ear, "You, Eddie Kaspbrak, never fell in love with me. When I click my fingers you will come out of this trance and you will forget who I am and everything we have experienced together,"

Richie had to pull away as a massive sob chocked up his throat. He was convinced he was going to be sick. He shuddered violently. He couldn't do it. He couldn't... but he had too.

Richie reached his hand up in front of his face, all the sweet memories of him and Eddie's racing through his mind. The trapeze. The gentle kisses. The midnight walks.

Richie hushed the screaming in his mind and hastily and snapped his fingers.

Gone.

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