Dont Let Go

ch.2: early reunion

Sunday, May 4, 2021

So it has been a few weeks and well I have to go to an early class reunion, for the class of 2020 at culver community middle/ high school. So this is going to be fun. But well I did do my hair a whole new way and will I dyed it blonde and red streaks,and I am proud of myself I did shave half my head. I said fuck it. And did it. I have wanted to do it for so long and well I did. But well I got dressed in this offutt:

So I grabbed my purse, phone keys. And well I forgot I had my guitar in the back. And I didn't have time to take it out so I left it in there. But I had an hour maybe two hour drive ahead of me so well this is it.

At culver middle/ high school

So I got there after an hour since there was no traffic. And thank goodness for that. But when I got there I saw a crap ton of cars. And the thing is I am wondering why did they have a reunion now and not in ten ambye less years. But not under five. I rolled my eyes and got out with my purse. I walked a little and then I heard my name I don't know why someone did, " Haley?" I turned around to see Ashley. I said, " hi Ashley." She said, " you're wearing color I am so proud of you." I laughed and said, " yeah this will be the only time though. All of my black clothes and skinny jeans were in the laundry. So this was the last option. How are you?"

She said, " good. And your dad said he is coming to." I sighed and said, " okay. I saw him a few weeks ago. But well okay." So I went over to the bleachers. And well before I could walk up I heard someone call my name once again, " Haley?" I looked back to see an old friend of mine, Carrie. I said, " hey Carrie." She smiled and gave me a hug. She said, " you're wearing color. I am so happy." I laughed and said, " this is what I get for having all of my black clothing in the laundry. But how are you?" She said, " good good. Also your dad is wondering where you are." I nodded and said, " okay well do you know where he was last seen?"

She replied, " concessions stand." I nodded and said, " okay and can we catch up later?" She nodded and I left to find my dad. I saw him at the window I waited and said, " hey dad." He turned around with a pretzel in his hand. I laughed and said, " still a pretzel monster I see?" He laughed and said, " hi. Wanna bite?" I said, " no thank you I am not hungry." He then said, " Haley so I know you didn't want to have a sweet sixteen but well I was thinking that I could help you plan for your eighteenth sweet birthday." I can't believe this I know he wanted me to have a sweet sixteen but this is like my mother passed him.

I told him, " dad I don't get the point of it. Why you know I don't want to celebrate my birthday." He sighed and said, " please. It will be fun. Besides think of this as a good thing." I growled and said, " no dad. Don't okay just no I need to cool down when you stopped acting like my mother come find me." I stormed off and well I just felt tears stream down I went to my car, and just quickly grabbed my phone and just started to play my YouTube mix. And my ear buds were in so I put it in my head and hit play. Music is my only friend. That understands me and helps me think.

I can just clear my head. And well I smacked my head on the steering wheel. And said, " I wish I was normal. And I wish I was real. I just wish right now I am invisible and alone in a room."

I then didn't realize I was in my own head. I heard someone knocking on the window I got out and saw ash and Carrie. I said, " hi." They looked at me and Carrie asked, " why are you crying." I replied, " my dad is acting like my mother. And right now it is just-" I cried even more and they just gave me a hug I said, " thanks." Ashley asked, " please stop crying. I don't know what to do to help?" I said, " bring my mom back?" She gave me a tighter hug and said, " Haley she is in a better place." I suxked up my tears and said, " I know it is just I wish we would've left on better terms." Then I heard ash's boyfriend, michael. " should I come back I see crying." I laughed and she said, " it's okay. Just girl talk."