Blow A Kiss, Take It Back

Chapter 1... An accident

Hi everyone this is just a quick note for you!!! This is my first fan fiction everrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! Please don't judge too harshly! I hope you enjoy! Remember to vote, fan and comment! I love you all!

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"Aislinn, honey are you ready yet? We have to leave in about ten minutes!"

"I'll be ready in ten minutes mum!"

"ok sweetie!" I continue rummaging through my closet trying to decide between my clingy white dress with a love heart cut out so it would show my belly button and my turquoise skinny jeans with a flowy floral top. I decide to wear the dress. Once I have thrown the dress on I slip on my red converses and start to straighten my hair. When I am done I look at myself in the mirror and am satisfied with my reflection. I do a little twirl and before racing out the door I grab my little red purse off my desk. I run downstairs and yell at mum and dad to meet me in the car. They slowly make their way out of the door and I yell at them to hurry up before we are late. They finally make it to the car and we start driving to my best friend, Alex's, house. It was a silent ride but on the inside I was screaming in excitement. I can't believe I am going to a one direction concert. Ahhhhhhhhhh! This is like a dream come true. I watch as Alex stumbles her way out of her house and into our car. We are excitedly whispering to each other in the backseat and when we pull up outside the venue of the concert I kiss mum and dad goodbye.

"love youse!" I scream to them "oh, and thank you again!"

"no worries sweetie, we love you too. We'll be back at midnight to pick you up." my father called to me.

"ok dad bye!"

"bye!" And with that they drove off. Alex and I linked arms and began to strut our way to the door, fans screaming deafeningly in all directions and that's when I hear a sickening smash. Car horns start to go off and then the cool night air is illuminated In a bright orange. I run back to where my parents were parked and glance down the street. My parents SUV was crushed into an unbelievably small mass and it was burning. I choked on a sob as I realised my mother's left hand was hanging out the smashed window all torn up and unmoving.

I began to run, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. My mascara was running but I didn't care I just kept running until I made it to my smashed up car. The heat was unbearable as I tried to get close enough to the car to help my parents. As I peered through the broken window I noticed both my mum's and dad's bodies were ablaze and I scream in terror as I see their limp lifeless bodies lying there burning. They barely resembled my parents. They were a bloody, broken, horrible mess and I had to tear my eyes away.

Alex tried to drag me away from the car but I pushed her away and turned back to face the accident. She landed on the ground with an oomf and just when I was about to climb into the car to help my parents two firm arms wrapped around my waist and lifted me off the ground carrying me away from the accident. I fought and tried to get away but was unable to, their grasp was too tight. Everything around me became a blur and only one thing was in my mind. I just watched my parents die. And with that I blacked out.

When I woke I was lying on something hard. Camera lights flashed around me blindingly and when I was finally able to make out the person beside me I noticed it was an ambulance person taking my pulse. Alex was sitting on my left, squeezing my hand tightly, tears silently rolling down her face in big fat drops. That's when memories came flooding back. The accident. My parents. Dead. My life would never be the same. I remembered my brother who was in Darwin. Has he even heard the news? I turn to face the ambulance person when he says that my pulse is fine and that I was in a bit of shock. Of course I was in fucking shock! My parents just died in front of my eyes. Another tear rolled down my face and I bitterly said thank you before standing up and storming away.

I heard Alex coming after me.

"Ais! Ais, please wait!" I turn to her and snap "what do you want!?" she shrunk back, hurt filling her eyes when she replied " I think we should still go to the concert. If we don't it would be a waste of money. Your parents would have wanted you to go and enjoy yourself." her voice cracked as she forced out the last sentence and I realised she was right. "ok." I say barely in a whisper. She comes to stand in front of me and wipes the messy mascara off my face.

"there now you look better" I giggled a little when I realised she was trying to make me feel better. We walked up to the door, the colour of blue and red lights still flashing on the building, and showed the doorman our tickets. He stepped aside, allowing us to go through the door and we squeezed our way through the screaming, crying, desperate, crazy audience. Seriously, they don't even know the guys, how much crazier could they get?

We made it to the front of the crowded room and then the boys came on stage. Alex and I screamed as you would expect and then they started to sing moments.

"Shut the door, turn the light off

I wanna be with you, I wanna feel your love

I wanna lay beside you, I cannot hide this

Even though I try

Heart beats harder, time escapes me

Trembling hands touch skin, It makes this harder

And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life, for one more day

If we could only turn back time

You know I'll be your life,your voice,your reason to be

My love,my heart is breathing for this

Moment in time I'll find the words to say

Before leave me today

Close the door, throw the key

Don't wanna be reminded, don't wanna be seen

Don't wanna be without you

My judgements clouded, like tonight's sky

Hands are silent, voice numb

Try to scream out my lungs

It makes this harder

And the tears stream down my face..." and that's when I zoned out. Everything around me was a blur and the music sounded distant. I stood there in that one spot staring into space, not moving. Everyone around me was swaying their arms in time to the music. Alex put her arm around my shoulder and that's when I couldn't do it anymore. I looked at her in the eyes, her brown eyes staring back at me before I yelled over the music "I can't do this anymore! You stay here and enjoy the concert! I'll be outside waiting for you when the concert's finished!"

"really?! Ok if you insist!" she yelled back. I then started to push my way back through the crowd. People were glancing at me, odd looks plastered on their faces, before they turned back to face the stage once again. I made it to the door and barged my way out breathing a sigh of relief as the cool, night air hit my face. I then sat down in the gutter and cried.