Blow A Kiss, Take It Back

Chapter 30...Torn

~~~Aislinn's POV~~

My eyelids fluttered open and a churning filled my stomach. I stood up quickly and ran to my ensuite where I then threw up in the toilet. When I was finished throwing up my insides I leant my face against the cool porcelain of the toilet bowl. I sat there for about ten minutes and when I was feeling better stood up and walked downstairs. My head throbbed with every step I took. When i got downstairs I sat on a barstool in the kitchen and laid my head on the bench.

"morning Aislinn." Liam's voice bounced off the walls, making my head pound harder. I groaned.

"oh. Hung over I see." he said and I mumbled a yes.

"here you go." he said placing something on the counter. I looked up slightly to see a glass of water and two sparkling little Advil pills. I thankfully swallowed them and then he gave me a cup

of coffee. I drank it, afterwards feeling a lot better.

"feel better?" Liam asked and I nodded.

"thanks."

"so still have your memory?"

"yeah but I feel really bad because now I know I love you. I like Niall but I love you and I feel really bad about breaking it off with him because I'm the one who lead him on."

"don't worry about it, love. You'll be fine." I smiled before heading back upstairs to shower. The warm water pelted onto my back and that's when I started to sing.

"thought I saw a girl brought to life,

She was warm,

she came around,

She was dignified.

She showed me what it was to cry.

You couldn't be that girl that I adored,

You don't seem to know,

Or seem to care what your heart is for,

But I don't know her anymore.

There's Nothin left I used to cry,

My conversation has run dry,

That's what's goin on

Nothing's fine I'm torn,

I'm all out of faith and this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor.

Illusion never changed into something real,

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn your a little late

I'm already torn. I'm already, I'm already torn.

There's nothin left i used to cry, inspiration has run dry, that's what's going on

nothing's fine I'm torn,

I'm all out of faith,

And this is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed lying broken on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

Torn

Oh torn."

I turned the shower off and dried myself before slipping on my waist high denim shorts with a grey singlet that says smile cause you can on it. I knew what I had to do. I had to go see Niall.

I walked down the hall and stopped in front of Niall's door. I took a long deep breath and then knocked firmly on the door.

"come in." Niall's familiar Irish accent was muffled through the door. I nervously pushed the door open to find Niall laying shirtless on his bed.

"hey Ais."

"hey Nialler."

"what's up?"

"um....we need to talk."

"ok." he replied uncertainly, patting the bed beside him. I awkwardly sat down on his bed and then I started talking.

"Niall, since I lost my memory I thought you were amazing. When you boys took turns visiting the hospital I always looked forward to your day the most. When we got home from the hospital and you showed me my room I knew our connection had grown stronger and I kissed you. You pushed me away and said it wasn't right. I then continued to force myself onto you and you began to change your mind and began to like me. On our date the other night I had an amazing time, it was so fun but for some reason I don't remember how it ended. Last night wen we went clubbing I had a lot of drinks. And by a lot I mean way too many. I was so drunk it wasn't funny and in my drunken haze I may have done something that I regret. But I'm not sure I regret it. I...I kissed Liam." Niall's face fell and I grabbed his hand reassuringly.

"that's not the only thing that happened though. When I kissed him...I got my memory back. And...and I realised that you weren't lying when you said how wrong we were and you weren't lying when you said how much Liam loved me. I remembered that I...I love Liam. I am so so so sorry for what happened. I do really really like you but I love Liam." I could feel the tears building in my eyes, threatening to spill over.

"please forgive me Niall. Can we please be friends?" I asked and on the last word the tears spilled over onto my cheeks. He wiped them away with his thumbs.

"of course we can still be friends Aislinn. It would be stupid to throw away a friendship like that." he said, I could hear the sorrow in his voice though. He then wrapped his arms around me in a bear hug. I hugged him back. He pulled away before kissing me on the forehead.

"Come on let's go get some breakfast." He said pulling me onto my feet. I quickly wiped my tears away before following him downstairs.

We walked into the kitchen to find that it was still only Liam who was up. He got Niall a cup of coffee and we all sat around the table talking for a while. Gradually everyone else got up. I said good morning before telling everyone I was going for a walk. I then left the house on my way to the swings at the park.

~~~Liam's POV~~~~

Aislinn seemed upset when she came back downstairs and I could tell she had been crying. Niall seemed out of sorts too but I didn't want to invade their privacy so I let it be. Gradually everyone got up and they were all hung over. It was kind of hilarious. Suddenly Aislinn said she was going for a walk and then she just left. I waited five minutes then told everyone Louis was nearly out of carrots so I was off to buy him more. I then left, trying to find Aislinn. I checked the only spot I could think of and luckily that's where she happened to be. She was sitting on the swings in the park where she opened up to me about her brother. I walked over to her and sat down in the empty seat.

"what's wrong?" I asked, concern lacing my voice.

"I broke it off with Niall and I feel really bad about it because he kept telling me we shouldn't be together but I forced him into liking me."

"what did he say about it?"

"he said that we could still be friends."

"well then what's so bad about?"

"nothing I just feel really guilty."

"you'll be fine. I promise." I walked over to her and hugged her tightly.

"I love you Ais."

"love you to Li-Li." and with that we walked back to the house hand in hand, grabbing a bag of carrots along the way.

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