Well, I could start off by saying I had the perfect life with the perfect boyfriend and it was amazing . I could lie or pretend that I was okay and that I wasn't secretly broken inside . But I didn't have the perfect life or the perfect boyfriend and I was broken . Nobody seemed to notice how hurt I really was and that's how I wanted it to stay . I didn't want people to know that I was vulnerable and weak .
It was summer 2014 when I was "talking" to a guy name Mark . I didn't really like him but I went along with it because he claimed he loved me . We talked all night on the phone and he made me feel special . He did what every guy should do, he was polite, made me feel gorgeous and knew how to make a girl happy. We talked for about a month when everything changed.
I was bored sitting at home doing nothing . I decided to call up a good friend of mine, in fact she was my best friend... At the time .
PHONE CONVERSATION
OLIVIA : Hey girl what's up ?
ME : Nothing really just chillin, you doing anything today ?
OLIVIA : Nope nothing exciting just watching tv .
ME : Wanna hangout ?
OLIVIA : Yeah. Can you come to my house in like 20 minutes ?
ME : Sounds good I'll text you when I'm on my way.
I hung up the phone, jumped out of bed and went straight to the bathroom . I began to undress and turned on the shower water as hot as possible . Waiting anxiously for the water to heat up I slipped my hand passed the shower certain and felt the water . It burnt my hand . I slid the curtain until it hit the wall, made the water less hot, stepped into the shower and closed the curtain. When I got out the shower I put my wet hair up into a high bun, not wanting my hair to touch my back. I hate the felling of wet hair. I grabbed my towel loosely rapping it around myself, then grabbed my phone putting on music. Lifestyle came on and I turned the volume all the way up as I walked into my room. I set my phone on the dresser and walked to my closet and began to search for something to wear. I pick out a plain white crop top, with some high wasted shorts and laid it out on my bed. I grabbed my makeup bag, pulling out a wipe to clean all the extra maskera running down my face, due to the hot shower I just took . Once I cleaned my face I began to do my makeup . I decided to do a like brown goldish eyeshadow with a winged eyeliner and some maskera . When I finished my makeup I took my hair out of the bun and tightly rapped a towel around it trying to dry it as much has possible. Noticing my hair wasn't really drying I took the towel tossed it on the floor and grabbed the moose and started to scrunch my hair, when the curl started to form I put the moose away and did some quick touch ups to my makeup and sprayed my hair with hairspray making sure the curls would stay. After that I put on the outfit I had picked out and matched it with my gold cuban hoops, and my gold Michel Kors watch. As I was walking out my house I looked down and noticed I had no shoes on . I quickly ran to my room opened my closet grabbing my white hightop converse, sat on my bed and slipped them on and walked to the front door. I grabbed my keys and walked to my driveway, where my black Range Rover was parked. I opened the door of my car got in a started the engine. As I started to pull out I remembered that I should probably text Olivia and let her know I was on my way .
PHONE CONVERSATION
ME : Heyy girl ! I'm on my way I'll see you soon !
OLIVIA : Alrighty chica just walk in when you get here. The door's unlocked.
I locked my phone and strapped on my seat bleat and was on my way .
When I pulled up to Olivia's house, I killed the engine, got out the car and locked the doors causing the car to make a loud beeping noise letting me know it was locked. I ran up the stairs and walked in the door screaming "I'm here bitch!" I was really embarrassed when I saw that Olivia's lover, Joseph was sitting on the coach watching tv.
CONVERSATION
ME : Umm, where's Olivia ? I said, embarrassed .
JOSPEH : She just headed out to go to the store, she said she was out of tequila and she needed some more knowing you were coming over.
ME : What are you trying to say? That I'm an alcoholic ?! I said rolling me eyes
JOSEPH : No of coarse not I was just quoting her exact words .
ME :Mmhnmm . I said while sitting down on the coach beside him .
JOSEPH : So how you been ? He questioned
ME : Same old, same old, I could be better . I said looking down
JOSEPH : Oh, he said awkwardly
ME: How about yourself ?
JOSEPH : Pretty good
ME: Thats nice .
We sat there continuing our conversation when suddenly Joseph said something unexpected.
CONVERSATION
JOSEPH : You know you look stunning ..
ME : Umm, thanks ?
JOSEPH : If I wasn't with Olivia I would-
Me : It doesn't matter what you would do because you are with Olivia. I cut him off.
JOSEPH : Well technically... I'm not really with her, it's not like we're dating.
ME : It doesn't matter, you guys talk and you shouldn't be hitting on me.
JOSEPH : It's hard to not hit on a girl such as yourself your beautiful and you deserve and guy that will treat you perfectly.
ME : That's sweet of you but I rather not talk about this anymore and I'm sorry but your not my type anyway .
JOSEPH : Then what is your type ?
ME : I don't know what my type is but I know what isn't, and my best friend's lover is definitely not my type . I lied right to his face and looked away and started to think.
I could feel him staring at me.
He was my type, he made me feel special, he treated me right, and knew all the right things to say . I felt a spark between us . But I couldn't have feelings for him, he was Olivia's and I was Mark's . He was cute though, that I had to admit it. He was tall, tan, defiantly had a body, he had the most beautiful blue eyes, and blonde hair. I didn't know what was going to happen between us because it was obvious, we had chemistry. I just hoped I didn't do anything stupid to ruin mine and Olivia's friendship, and that I didn't ruin anything between Mark and I. I was determined to force myself to push Joseph away so that I wouldn't gain any type of feelings for him . I hoped Olivia would arrive soon so that I wouldn't be stuck alone in her house, with her lover, thinking about how amazingly handsome he was.
Just then I caught myself day dreaming and was brought back to reality by the touch of Joseph's hand on my leg. I quickly pushed his hand away trying not to think about how much I wanted to kiss him.
CONVERSATION
JOSEPH : What's wrong ? He said as he looked at me with his gorgeous big blue eyes.
ME : Nothing. I said pouting my lips
JOESPH : Something's wrong, did I do something?
ME : Yes you did, you put your hand on my thigh and are hitting on me. I said rolling my eyes
I couldn't believe what happen next.
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