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"You're not the hero. If anything you're the antagonist."

And that's how my story starts. I'm like every other hero. I don't do anything wrong. I'm right. I'm always right. I'm good. I always do good. I never meant to actually hurt anyone.

They were simply pawns in my large game of chess. They were nothing. Nothing.
They don't feel. The world is just a simple simulation. Or to put it further, a test. '        '    Or so I thought.

"No one can be always right." A cheery voice piped as i laid in the short grass, the sun beaming on my face.

"That's not true," I scoffed. "I'm always right."

The owner of the cheery voice stood up from where she was laying and pointed her finger at me.
"Suki Heather Sparrow! You're not always right!" She shouted.

"Hazel calm down. You're being irrational and overdramatic." I stated calmly, slowly getting up to meet her eyes.

She bopped me on the forehead with the palm of her hand, causing me to fall back down. I grabbed her ankles and pulled her down with me. We fell into a pile of laughter. 

Hazel was my best friend. She was another player in the game. Not just a pawn in the chess game.
But like every good thing in life she was gone one day.

"You're hopeless Suki!" Hazel giggled, as she stood up.
She was right. I am hopeless. I don't deserve hope. No one in this fake simulation of a world does.

"No I'm not!" I giggled, grabbing her ankles again to try and bring her back down. Maybe if I tried hard enough she would've stayed. But she left.  She ran down the hill and back into the small village we lived in. And just like that I was alone again.

Hazel and I lived in a small village to the west of a large river that separates the more dangerous part of our world and the peaceful part. The village was a small one that had about twelve "people" living in it. We had always called it infernum. Living there was absolute hell, and Hazel and I always talked about leaving and going off and living on our own.

Hazel didn't believe that the world was a simulation, or a test. She described it as "A place that was made so that we could live in harmony. But like humans do we fucked the world up."  I would laugh when she would say this.
"I don't think you understand Hazel." I would say. "Those aren't humans. They're simply tests. They don't feel they can't. It's not in their coding. They say what they are programed to say."

Every time I would say this to her, she would stop.
"Do you think I am a simulation?"
"No," I would say. "You're real. Like me. That's why we're meant to be together. Right?"
She would always stare at me in disbelief when I asked this.
"You're unbelievable Suki Heather Sparrow." Then she would leave. 
And again I was alone. Forever alone.
I knew I was alone. I knew my life was going nowhere. I knew that one day I would die and the only person who would shed a single tear was Hazel. No one else has feelings. Hazel. Stupid Hazel. If she would've known the truth she would still be here with me and we would've still been together. I wouldn't be so alone.

One day when we were on our hill and we heard gunshots coming from Infernum.
Hazel was worried.

"Oh leave it Hazel. It doesn't matter anyway. They can't feel. You'll be safe up here with me."

"Oh god. My parents are down there." Her eyes suddenly filled with tears. "I have to help them!"

"Hazel, they can't feel. If they die, good riddance." At this she shoved me as hard as she could.

"Dammit Suki! Don't you care?! They could be seriously hurt and you don't even care?!"

"I don't care, cause they dont feel, so why are you worried about them being hurt?"