Catch The Spy (GxG)

Back to Level One

-Cara-

She pushes me against the wall. I run my hands through her golden hair. As hard as I try to picture this as Emily, a girl I just met at a bar. All I see is Zoe. It's has been a few weeks and the whole gang is a reck, not to mention they have no idea that I've been hanging out at a motel not to far away. My dads going to kill me if he ever tracks me down. I have erased all trace of my existence easily.
"Something wrong beautiful?" Emily asks me. She's a tiny bit taller than me and a dirty blonde. I would peg her are gorgeous but it's hard to say that when I compare her to Zoe.
"Maybe we can do this another time..." I say. It's not the first time I've turned someone down in these past weeks. I used to easily hook up with whoever, whenever. But now I'm rarely in the mood.
"Oh come on, I wanna explore you." Emily bites her lip, her eyes filled with lust.
"No means no." I say pushing her away from me. But she grabs my wrist. That was her first mistake. Within a blink of an eye, I have flipped her over my shoulder and I have her pinned to the floor. "Nice try, don't be so thirsty next time and maybe that wouldn't have happened." I say. Emily gets up and rushes out the door.

I pull my phone out of my pocket and see more notifications from Zoe. She has been texting me everyday. I still don't forgive her for taking me away from my gang in their time of need, but I miss her so damn much. I turn off my phone and turn on the T.V. While lighting some rolled weed. It calms me.

I watch the news until an interesting story comes on. It's something about my dad. I turn it up.

"A gang leader was recently shot in an alleyway, his name is unknown but by his jacket we can tell he was the leader of a drug gang called The Mirror Pistols." The news lady says.

"He is alive and hospitalized, but there is a small chance of him making it. If he does make it he will be sentenced to a life time in jail." A news man adds on.

My phone starts ringing. I look to see that it's Zoe, she never calls, only texts. Something about the government tracking calls.

I don't know why I'm answering. Maybe the wave of emotions, maybe the weed.
"Zoe, he got shot! I- I can't believe it. What's going to happen?" I cry into the phone.

"Hey, hey, it's okay. I'm so glad you picked up. I just heard on the news. Where are you?" She ask. Hearing her voice calms me more than any drug. I tell her the name of the motel and my room number. "Okay, I'm heading out the door right now, it's going to be okay, I'm here for you." She says. I hear the sound affect of gunshots and look at the new to see a video of it happening.
"Zoe! They showed him getting shot! Zoe!" I scream and cry into the phone.
"It's alright love, just turn off the T.V. I'll be there in five minutes." She says. I shakily pick up the remote and turn the tv off. I sob nonsense into the phone for 5 minutes and Zoe just calms me down and says she's almost here.

I get up to open the door when she gets there and fall into her arms. I feel safer than ever, since the past weeks. Zoe sniffs the air and her eyes widen. I look up at her and she fixates on my neck. Shit, I probably have a couple hickeys. Her eyes look more sad than anything, but she just hugs me and tells me everything's going to be okay.

I cry and sob into her chest for a few minutes until she moves me over to the bed. We lay down together and Zoe throws the weed I lit out the window.

After about half an hour I have stopped crying and Zoe just holds me under the covers. Having her arms around me sends the same butterflies through me as the first time she came to the examination room. I still remember how she looked at me when she tapped her fingers across my arms to distract me from my addiction. Like I was the only important thing in the moment. It left me breathless.

Like how even though it's obvious I hooked up with people here, and I broke her promise about no drugs, she's here right now, cuddling with me and making sure I'm okay. I turn around and face her. She looks down to me and I see her eyes look tired.

"I missed you." I say.

"Then why didn't you call?" She asks. She looks genuinely upset, "why did you break your promise, and why have you been with someone else?" Her voice starts to break. My eyes tear up in regret. The fluttery feeling is gone and now it's more painful than anything.

"I don't know, your the first relationship I've ever had. I panicked and I couldn't handle myself." I say about to break into tears again. Zoe just sighs and pulls me to her chest. She rests her head in the crook of my neck but then moves it to the top my head when she touches a hickey. I hold onto her as I hear her ragged breaths as she tried not to cry in front of me. Her chest goes up and down randomly and rapidly.

"You don't have to stay strong, I definitely haven't." I tell her, "go ahead, yell at me, cry, leave. I deserve it."

"I'll not going to yell at you. I may be upset, but I made a mistake too. It hurts, but I know you can change, you did for me for a little while." I explains. She tilts her face toward mine and I stare at her red eyes.
"I love you..." I say. It's feel weird yet amazing to say it.
"I live you too." She responds after a small pause.