Ella POV
I was sitting on the couch in the living room ,there was some movie playing on the tv while jake was in the kitchen busy making pop corn
The game week was over and he wanted to makeup for the time he wasn't there with me
So we were at his home for a movie date
But all this while my mind wandered
to things that happened this past week, fromI have spent my all evenings with Azriah the whole week. I would meet him at his place ,we would end up on his bed or backseat of my car,then i would leave before my curfew but not before saying i hate you to each other
That was the constant sequenceI did not regret what i did
But i felt low of myself and bad for Jake ,i was basically cheating him ,it was not that i and Azriah were exclusive ,we very much hated each other but Jake does not deserve this
After all, he have been kind and good to meI never could understand why i had to do it with Azriah
Was it lust?
Did i want somebody's touch that bad?
But i have a boyfriend and that too a kind ,handsome , smart and golden boy of school
What does it make me?
"Baby is everything ok?"
Jake bought me back to real worldI looked at his face ,my thought knocking my brain his voice fading in my ears as i look at him
I moved closer to him and kissed him ,he reciprocated the kiss
It didn't feel overwhelming like itdid with Azriah
But we continued the kiss
I started removing his shirt
"Baby do you want this,i can wait ,we don't have to rush?"
I gulped looking in his eyes and gave a slight nod which i don't know was a yes or no
I think i just wanted to test my theory
Was i really a whore?"Are you sure?" He asked again
"Yes" i whispered still unsure
He picked me up in bridal style taking me to his room
He removed his shirt throwing it away and hovering his body over me
He started kissing me
He tried to snuck his tongue which at first i refused but then i gave in
His handed started slide under my shirt and slowly it reached upwards towards my breasts"No, I can't" i yelled pushing him away so hard that he landed on bed
I don't know what overcame but i was panicking
He stands up and there is a shocked look on his face ,he looked sad but soon went in normal faceI know i have hurt him had
"Hey ,Hey Calm down"
Jake said quickly coming beside me but i resisted his touch"Did i do something wrong?" He asked sadly
"No,No it's not you its me , I don't deserve you ,i am not good enough for you"i say almost tearing up
"No don't say that ,you are perfect"
"I m not ,i m not even half of it" i say shaking my head
"Hey hey you are the best choice of my life"he said giving me a slight smile
"Only if you knew what i did"
He had.little change of expressions
"It can't be that bad ,i love you and i trust you"
This broke my heart in million ways,i did so wrong ,guilt all over me
Pain crushing my chest and stomach in tight knot
my heart threatening to come out"I cheated you god damnit ,i cheated ,i m a fucking cheater " i shouted
Tear spilling outJake looked beyond broken and it killed me ,i hurt somebody emotionally and. Mentally
I m a fucking bad person , I don't deserve anyone
"You didn't" jake said softly
"I did jake ,i did ,i slept with someone while you were away ,i m a chea-ter" my word muffled as i break down completely
Jake seemed shocked ,
broken like he would just burst out any moment"Leave" he said in a monotonous straight voice
I stood there looking at him
" Leave ,its over " he yelled and i shuddered a little
I still stood there looking at him
The next moment he grabbed me by my hand tightly ,dragging me all the way to house door leaving me out all alone
He slammed the door at my faceI fell crying on his door step
I sat there for half an hour
I could hear things being broken upstairs, i got up and started walking back messaging on my wayI was on the main road when a bike came roaring towards me
It stoped beside me
The person got down
A figure was now standing in front of meI looked at his grey eyes
Wrapping my arms around him i burst crying
I kept on crying"I told jake i cheated" i murmured
i felt his hand around my waist hugging me tightly
A jacket came over around me and then Azriah took me to the bike
"Lets go home" he said as he sat on the bike
I sat behind him hugging him tightly
He drove the bike at full speed ,the air striking me as my face turn cold ,my tears formed puddle over his white shirt
Soon we were in front of his house
He parked his bike and scooped me gently in his arms taking me to his room
He sat me at the bed and went to his closet bringing pair of clothesSitting beside me he changed my clothes into comfortable ones
I just sat in my griefHe then changed his clothes
He reached the other end of the bed
"Sleep" he said gently
I laid beside him snuggling closer to his bare chest and wrapping my arm around his torso
He slid his arm under my head and held me tightly with his arms
His feet tangled with mineAnd slowly i drifted to sleep
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A long chapter finally
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