I was sitting by myself at school behind the tree, my own spot.
I get bullied everyday, I soon started to blame my self like what if I was pretty maybe they wouldn't or if I was as skinny as them.
When the bell went I made my way to my next class English, I'm not a nerd but everyone thinks I am cause I sit in the front of class and hand in my homework on time.
I was sitting by myself when the first paper was thrown at me I soon learnt that if I ignored them they would leave me alone. Sometimes it would work but then again were would they find the fun.
The teacher walked in, she was my second favourite teacher, my first was my music teacher. She started talking about speeches that we had to start writing and what we had to do it about. The rest of the period was just writing g the speech.
Every year I try get out of speeches but it never works normally I pull a Sicky and not have to do it. When the bell went I rushed out to music. The teacher knows I'm not confidante to sing in front of class so she never makes me.
I choose to sit in the back today since it was like my spot in music. Slowly students came in, lastly the populars... Josh, amber and sky those are just in music, the rest are in another class.
The teacher wasn't there. Instead some old crumby teacher walks in. "Okay class I'm Mr Wills, I want everyone to pair up and choose a song and perform it you have 10 minutes go". Since I'm by my self, just in case I get picked I choose to sing the song "your not innocent"
One by one groups went up, in the last 15 minutes my name was called. " so winter what song r u singing?".
Asked Mr Wills " I'm singing a song your not innocent I wrote by my self"
" why did u pick this song?"
" I picked this song cause I'm bullied and this sing shows that"
There was a lot of things said in the audience but I ignored then and continued. " I never sing in front of people but yet I am today cause none can hurt me anymore then they already do.
" okay sing your song, but since it your own song it going to be harder for me to mark that I liked it".
I slowly tone a breath and started singing and played the guitar
Started off at school
Always saying I wasn't good enough
Rumours spread and stories told
That I somehow heard of
Then the social network came
And it got so much badder
Telling her to just give up
So I listened to the chatter
I stopped there but kept strumming and said not singing " you guys all hurt me in one way, you think u are being cool or whatever that I'm a joke, I'm not I'm abused at home, my family I now is no more and that jus the start I have a story and yet I still get bullied". I go back to singing
How do you feel now she's gone
And her family is turn
How do you feel now
She's watching you live on
How do you feel now she's gone
And what your words have done
You can try you can cry you can scream
But your not innocent
Started out with the razor
When she was shaving her legs
Then it got to a knife when
She wasn't with her parents
Always wearing jumper s and bangles
To cover up the suicide attempts
Then they pushed her too hard
And she walked over the edge
How do you feel now she's gone
And her family is torn
How do you feel now
She's watching you live on
How do you feel now she's gone
And what your words have done
You can try you can cry you can scream
But your not innocent
I stopped singing, tears steaming down my face. Everyone was looking at me. Maybe it could be because I let my hair down and take off my glasses and acted pike my self or that I just blow the roof off.
I looked outside and saw that there was heaps of people looking at me, maybe they left class or something. Slowly they started clapping. Maybe I was finally fitting in.
Next chapter will be up soon what do u think??
