Lies

I Can't ...

⚠️ If self-harm, suicide, or abuse makes you uncomfortable please proceed with caution as it is mentioned pretty soon! ⚠️

Third Person POV
It's been a month since the drama had started it's recordings and things haven't gotten any better than before. But instead, it has gotten worse for Midoriya.

Midoriya's POV
I've been having more and more nightmares, and it's not helping that Kacchan has been neglecting me. I can't go back. I don't ever want to, never again.
I was too little to understand what was happening to my mom until it happened in front of my eyes.

Flashback...

"Daddy? Where are you going?" I stared at my father's packed suitcase.
"Oh, Daddy's just going on a business trip. Remember to be a good boy for mommy okay?" He said that so sweetly that I didn't realize that he was lying.
"Will daddy be back for my birthday?"
"I'll try." He gave me a tight hug, "alright daddy has to go now. Bye Izu!" That was the last time I ever saw him. I didn't realize that my father had left my mom for another woman until I saw the divorce papers. My mom hasn't been doing well ever since he left. It wasn't until I was older than I had realized what my father had done to her.
"Mom I'm home!" Everything was quiet until I heard my mom crying in her bedroom. I cracked the doors open and saw her sobbing into her knees with the divorce papers in front of her. I walked over and tried to calm her down.
"Mom are you-"
*slap*
"IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU HE WOULD STILL BE HERE!" Then everything after that was a blur. I just sat there and that's when everything truly feels apart. I was scared, terrified. I didn't know what would tick my mom off at any moment. I'm not sure when I started I only remember is that one day I walked into the bathroom, saw a blade and used it. I guess I like how it distracted me from what was going on around me.

Time skip...

"Mom, I'm home..." there wasn't a response.
"Mom? What do you wanna eat?" Still silence.
"Mom?" I slowly crept up towards her bedroom. I opened the door and walked over to her.
"Mom?" I turned her to wake her up, but she wasn't moving.
"Mom!" I shook her but still no response. I immediately checked her pulse and it wasn't there.
"Mom! You can't leave me alone! You-" I couldn't breathe anymore. I then called the police and ambulance. It turned out that my mom had overdosed on sleeping pills. My mom had been close friends with All Might and so he took me in and raised me.

Today was our "anniversary" I wondered if Kacchan remembers.
"Deku! I'm going, I'll be late tonight don't wait for me." He's said this every day now. Why did I ever get my hopes up... I decided to go to the kitchen and made some coffee for myself. I decided to call All Might.
*phone noises*
"Hey kid what's up?"
"How's the album?"
"Oh yeah, that... are you ok kid?"
"Yeah, why? Are the songs bad?"
"No no no, that's not what I meant. It's just it's really emotional..."
"Isn't that good?"
"Yeah, I guess. It's going to be released in two days."
"I'll wait for the results then."
"Alright, bye kid."
"See ya." He still knows me best. I should start working on my next song.

Time skip...

I ran downstairs when I heard the front door open. I saw Kacchan there with Kirishima.
"Why are you here?"
"Oh, Bakubro got-"
"Don't call him that..."
"Whatever, anyway he got drunk with me and I had the responsibility of taking him home." I immediately walked over and took Kacchan.
"He should be awake right about now." Then I felt Kacchan hug me back.
"Kiri~ you smell nice..." Kacchan dug his face into my neck, I flinched.
"Well take care." I could hear the smirk in his voice. Then he walked out.
"Kiri~ come to bed with me~" I tried to hold my tears back.
"Kacchan-"
"Hmm.... when did you start calling me that?"
"I'm not Kirishima."
"Kiri, what are you saying?" Then he pulled me into a kiss. It hurts. Kacchan then moved to my neck.
"Ah!" I immediately went to cover my mouth.
"Noooo~ I wanna hear your voice~" I closed my eyes and let Kacchan have his way. If he could be happy I'll take it.

Time skip...

It hurts everything hurts.
"Kacchan..." I got up and slowly limped over to the bathroom. I got in the shower and took a warm shower. I got out and got dressed... I looked over at the counter and saw the scalpel. I couldn't help my self. I walked over to it and picked it up...

*slice*
The blood dripped down the cut, it distracted me from my past pain. Tears ran down my face, but I felt relieved. I sat down and sobbed under my breath.

More time skip...

I cleaned up everything and put bandages around my arms. I went and dug out my old hoodies from the attic. I looked over at the clock and it said 7:30, Kacchan should be down in a few minutes, so I started to make breakfast.

I heard Kacchan walk down the stairs a few minutes later.

"Hey Deku, are you okay?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Oh, nothing."

"Kacchan, breakfast is ready." I finished preparing breakfast and settled down across from Kacchan.

"Deku, look-"

"Kacchan. You don't need to explain..."

"But-"

"Kacchan! I know! I know what you want to say! Just don't make it worse than it already is..."

"Deku..."

"I'm going back to bed." I got up and ran for the stairs.

Bakugou's POV

I know I'm hurting him. The alcohol got to me.

"I'm going back to bed." I looked over and saw a layer of white beneath his sleeve.

"Deku.." I finished and went to wash the dishes. After that, I went upstairs to change when I heard Deku's voice.

(You may start the song now)

"I dreamed a dream of you and me. I dreamed that we were young..." Without realizing my lips curved into a smile.

"I got lost hoping that we would never get old..." Then out of all the sudden the memories of Deku, when we were kids ran through my mind.

"I got lost in a daydream of silence and peace. I got lost in the moment, the space in between..." Then the sound of the guitar stopped, and there was a loud sigh.

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Hello, guys, it's me, I hope you've been enjoying the story. I'll be posting more often in the next 2 weeks, cause schools out for cOrOnA. Anyways see you guys next time.

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