Well it been just another night
The same as every other
just another fight
Thrown about in my own 'home'
Still bringing myself back together
Just another time
Hurting myself just felt right
But I didn't do it tonight
Although it felt right.
Another night,
Logged in and saw your chat light
And I knew there was something else
Something else to call right.
You're not online,
So, I start thinking
All that wasn't right
Before we reached the stability, we are at the time.
I'm thinking about us
About that afternoon by the bus
The day you rushed
To apologize for not getting me much
That gift was more than enough
On valentines how sweetly you blushed
When you admitted I was your crush.
I stopped and smiled
It was the first in a while
I did something right.
I'm thinking of how we got here,
The sad thoughts are from that day
2nd June
BBQ
I'm sorry for what I had to do
I was scared to do what I wanted to
Leave him and be with you
But he had me scared white,
Scared of his manipulative side.
So, I did what I thought was right.
Then cried all night.
Because,
It wasn't right.
You never left,
Pull me together when 'he' made me a mess
Pulled me aside and gave me a kiss
Till that afternoon
I realized you'd always accept me
Through all our invisible tests
I decided to fix my life
Cause you'd be right there
I left him
Didn't shed a tear that night.
I knew I did right
I'm thinking about me,
In 9B
Your first I asked to be.
You accepted graciously.
I hadn't planned it for that day,
I guess it's destiny
Happiest day of my life
I did right.
I wish to say bumps ended there
But Wattpad conversations flared
I said some things
And so did you.
Roughed us around
Tossed us about
Rumors were surfacing all around
Stubborn as a mule
We talked it out,
Decided what was right and what was not.
Right was building ourselves up.
To this day we are stronger
Pray every night for us to be longer
We've learnt to sit and talk
We've repaired a broken trust
makeup and make out after each fight
Learnt how to do it right
I heard the song that played that day
when I realized I adored you
And I thought of you
holding me tight
when things are bad
helping me fight.
It took a while
But I am not letting go this time
You're in my future
The best thing that's mine.
made me know the true value of those three words.
I know the road isn't going to be glittery all the time
But for us I'm putting up a fight
Because I'm sure this is right.
Maya❤❤❤
a/n . . . . . . . . . . . . . . dedicated to BJBHUDIAL ❤❤❤. The amazing person who thought me that love exists and what it is. Love isn't all the mushy stuff. Its sticking together. Its being there. And sometimes, as we had it, its not sunshine and rainbows, its a lot of heartbreak , agruement and tears. (as u can clearly see in the poem). But we were resilient and where we are today. Amazing. I love u buba. ❤BB4L❤
p.s. this poem is being put up to contest with other incredible poets in the 'Febuary is Stuble' poetry competition/contest.
